colors <strong>and</strong> forms which I see when I hear music. I fear only I will never hear the music in a painting, but perhaps you canhelp me."He held up the disc. "Thank God, modern technology came to my rescue in form of phonograph discs, which permit meto hear the piece of music again <strong>and</strong> again during my work."He carefully placed the disc on the phonograph, cranked the machine, <strong>and</strong> very delicately lowered the needle into thegroove.A crackling noise came from the speaker funnel <strong>and</strong> then suddenly an instrument with a brassy, crowing sound rose,described a large arc, screeched to a high register only to fall back to a melody in the lowest bass. A piano with a strangesyncopated rhythm hacked the melody to pieces. Drums <strong>and</strong> cymbals took over the beat. The brass instrument wentsilent for a stretch leaving the drummer <strong>and</strong> the piano in a frenzy of rhythmic figures. The drummer in an attack of wildmadness picked up the melody.Impossible. A drum making music? With great virtuosity the drummer performed a solo ending in a cadence of rhythmicnoise until the brass burst in again, crowing with full force for a few bars, sweeping up the other instruments—<strong>and</strong> alwaysthis relentless, driving, swinging, syncopated, overheated beat.Claudia <strong>and</strong> Clara sat shocked in stony silence. Alex<strong>and</strong>ra fought against a flood of vivid colors, spirals, blobs pulsatingwith the rhythm, they attacked her whole body. She focused on the painting, <strong>and</strong> its lines <strong>and</strong> blotches began to dance,shamelessly. An image of <strong>Konrad</strong> in front of the Gauguin paintings at Becky’s house passed before Alex<strong>and</strong>ra’s mind.The onslaught of this music was many times more "obscene" than the Gauguins, a mixture of sexual arousal, dancerhythms, <strong>and</strong> overheated colors.K<strong>and</strong>insky watched silently."What is this music?" asked Claudia, wide-eyed."Negermusik, Negro music. A friend brought me these recordings from America. The Negroes use this kind ofspontaneously improvised music at weddings, dances, <strong>and</strong> funerals. To their ears it is highly spiritual.""And what is that brassy instrument? I have never heard a sound like that.""It is a saxophone, a reed instrument."Alex<strong>and</strong>ra was still trying to calm her emotions. Her mind held an image that was still gyrating <strong>and</strong> pulsing as she lookedat K<strong>and</strong>insky’s canvas."And Alex<strong>and</strong>ra, did you see this music?""I have not recovered from it yet, your whole canvas is dancing."K<strong>and</strong>insky beamed. "This music is so much more spiritual <strong>and</strong> passionate than Schönberg or Webern. Maybe one day Iwill paint their dry, minimal compositions. For the time being this Negro music has me off my feet. I call my paintingKomposition VII, because I recomposed this music on canvas. I am so pleased that you see it, none of my acquaintances<strong>and</strong> critics seem to able to do that."He waved his arms. "Rarely have I worked so hard as for Komposition VII. I have yet to exhaust what I hear in this piece.You know, this music is not ‘composed,’ the musicians cannot even read notes, they play spontaneously <strong>and</strong> intuitively.Is this drummer not fabulous?"K<strong>and</strong>insky got up <strong>and</strong> arranged five large canvasses next to each other along the wall. Expectantly he stood aside, lefth<strong>and</strong> on the last painting, his right in his vest in the Napoleonesque stance Alex<strong>and</strong>ra remembered so well. The tea inthe suddenly absurdly delicate Meissen service was getting cold, the torte was untouched.He swept his h<strong>and</strong> over the paintings. "These are all different aspects of the piece I played for you. Can you see it?"Clara spoke up. "I have seen some of your earlier ‘abstracts’ <strong>and</strong> came away with the impression that they were paintedentirely at r<strong>and</strong>om, r<strong>and</strong>om lines, r<strong>and</strong>om colors. To my amazement I now see that you planned every spot, every color,<strong>and</strong> every form carefully. Some repeat themselves from painting to painting, some are added, others have been left out."She got up <strong>and</strong> pointed at the features she meant.A painful smile on his face K<strong>and</strong>insky admitted. "Unfortunately, you are correct, these paintings are carefully planned. Ihave to use my head, trying this, trying that, changing a shape or a color to compose what I want. I paint with my intellectinstead of my emotions or my subconscious as these musicians seem to be able to do."Clara shook her head. "These pieces are an impressive achievement in exploring a new way of painting. The time <strong>and</strong>labor you must have spent in painting these large canvasses!"K<strong>and</strong>insky took his right h<strong>and</strong> out of his jacket <strong>and</strong> made a dismissive gesture. "Oh, once I see what I want, the processis quite fast. I finished these five variations of Komposition VII in less than three weeks."Clara asked whether he would show them selected examples of the paintings that preceded Komposition VII."Let me first show you the last version of Komposition VII. It hangs in the next room, a canvas of two by three meters, toobig to carry around."He had turned the warm, occasionally hot colors of the earlier paintings into light, cool greens <strong>and</strong> blues. A seeminglyinextricable maze of delicately interwoven forms covered the center of the painting. Despite its size it appeared lighter,more spacious. The room was too small to see the painting from an appropriate distance.K<strong>and</strong>insky took them through the house. He showed them a selection of Impressionen painted between 1911 <strong>and</strong> 1912.188
He had started with representational subjects, many with a religious content, Russian <strong>and</strong> Bavarian saints, several St.Georges. Slowly the human form dissolved into abstract signs. A yellow cow filling most of the canvas—according toSteiner yellow is female. Your Anima is yellow! One canvas, called Impression 19, Konzert, reminded Alex<strong>and</strong>ra of theevening at the Dahls—you are right, the black gr<strong>and</strong> piano, Steiner, the guests. Still earlier: Murnau almost fullyrepresentational—<strong>and</strong> among these smaller paintings a dreamscape, The Woman in Moscow, 1912.A disembodied Russian woman floating above a street scene, her left arm partially missing, the other h<strong>and</strong> holding asmall dog on a flower st<strong>and</strong>, half-hidden behind the woman a fiaker in flight <strong>and</strong> floating suspended a large, black blob…An apparition? On the street a pink spot. A rose? A faded puddle of blood? A discarded female napkin?Alex<strong>and</strong>ra stood rooted before the painting, magically attracted by the black blob flying above the scene. She blurted."Her name is Nina."K<strong>and</strong>insky took a step backwards. He tucked his chin in <strong>and</strong> stared at Alex<strong>and</strong>ra. "How did you guess? Are youclairvoyant?""Sometimes I am <strong>and</strong> I dislike myself for it. I met Nina in St. Petersburg many years ago."For the rest of the evening K<strong>and</strong>insky was despondent, his high spirits suddenly gone. He invited them to dinner in thevillage Gasthaus. Nina <strong>and</strong> the painting were not mentioned again.Alex<strong>and</strong>ra berated herself for her thoughtlessness. But how could she have anticipated his reaction?The black spot is he, she answered her own question, I should have guessed that.Clara, trying to patch Alex<strong>and</strong>ra’s faux-pas, inquired what he planned to do with his oeuvre. It would already fill a smallmuseum. K<strong>and</strong>insky shrugged, he was under no pressure to sell. He had a large number of paintings stored in Munich.Time would solve that question.When they left, K<strong>and</strong>insky gave Alex<strong>and</strong>ra a copy of his book Über das Geistige in der Kunst, on the spiritual in art, witha dedication in German:Für Alex<strong>and</strong>ra Dadiani, die georgische Prinzessin, die mich ermutigte den Weg in die Abstraktion zu suchen—ForAlex<strong>and</strong>ra Dadiani, the Georgian princess, who encouraged me to look for the way into abstraction.After what had happened, Alex<strong>and</strong>ra was mortified by this gift.K<strong>and</strong>insky smiled. His last words were in Russian. "I am deeply obliged to you. Nina is waiting for me in Moscow."59.Alex<strong>and</strong>ra's return via Tiflis1913Alex<strong>and</strong>ra spent the day in a reclining chair on deck. The ship plowed the blue Aegean Sea towards Constantinople.The Cycladic Isl<strong>and</strong>s, bare, tree-less rocks crowned by white-washed villages, drifted through the clear, sunny day. Shefound that she did not remember any of these isl<strong>and</strong>s, it must have been night when they passed the Aegean on theirhoneymoon.For two days she had walked through Venice in search of <strong>Konrad</strong>. The city still exerted its spell on her. In a weakmoment she had toyed with the thought of finding a man to make love to. But <strong>Konrad</strong>’s presence was so strong, that shecould not imagine another man would be able to satisfy her longings. How could she recover the fleeting reflections inwhich she had seen their love?She had visited the Accademia to look for her favorite Giorgione. This time the painting no longer spoke to her. It lookedsmaller than she remembered. Should one not attempt to repeat such highs? The mood, the longings of another timecannot be recreated.On the second day she felt that someone was following her. Disturbed, she took refuge in a church. She waited in thecold <strong>and</strong> musty place <strong>and</strong> carefully watched the people who came in, genuflected in front of the altar, prayed, or lit ac<strong>and</strong>le <strong>and</strong> left. They came <strong>and</strong> went. No one paid attention to the lonely tourist.The church felt like a tomb, gray marble, a second-rate altar, cold, exalted memorials along the walls, dust <strong>and</strong> grime.None of the euphoria that had once rescued her in Santa-Anna-im-Lehel in Munich.This fear of being followed was not her usual Georgian affliction, it lay deeper, it would not disappear on its own or bedismissed by a simple movement of her h<strong>and</strong>.A voice came from behind her left shoulder. "Your death is watching you."The voice was not threatening, rather, the words were delivered in a calm, matter of fact tone. There was no one around.She was entirely alone.189
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