He had to admit to that.Henri Halvejian had his shop on the second floor of a building that was entirely occupied by goldsmiths <strong>and</strong> jewelers. Anarmed guard with a dashing mustache who looked like a b<strong>and</strong>it with a high fur hat, two b<strong>and</strong>s of munitions crosswiseover his chest, <strong>and</strong> an old-fashioned gun by his side, stood at the narrow entrance. As they approached, he presentedhis gun, stood at attention, <strong>and</strong> let them pass with a "Good morning, Princess Dadiani!"<strong>Konrad</strong> laughed. "Ha, the Georgian army at work. That comes from taking out a truly aristocratic lady. I am amazed,everybody seems to know you by name! ""They do," she said with annoyance, dismissing his comment with a sweep of her elegant h<strong>and</strong>.Henri, truly delighted, got up from his workbench <strong>and</strong> greeted Alex<strong>and</strong>ra <strong>and</strong> her guest with a smile. A broad-shoulderedman without a beard, about five years older than <strong>Konrad</strong>. Very personably <strong>and</strong> unpretentiously, he bade them to sitdown. He took off his glasses <strong>and</strong> closed his shop."I don’t want anybody to disturb us. How are your architecture classes coming, Alex<strong>and</strong>ra?""Henri, they are terribly boring. Schröder is trying to make us memorize design templates for all kinds of architecturaldetails. In another month he will have killed all my visual imagination. Will I ever be able to conjure up another beautifuldesign on my own, independent of these curlicues?"Henry nodded. "I know what you mean, most goldsmiths here work from such templates, which they inherited from theirmaster. Look at the conventional filigree work around, it is all done in exactly this way."Alex<strong>and</strong>ra picked up a brooch from his table <strong>and</strong> examined it. "How do you come up with these designs? I have neverseen two that were alike."Henri combed his dark hair back with his fingers <strong>and</strong> then looked at his h<strong>and</strong>s. "I don’t know how to explain it to you.They appear to me in my dreams. But this is hardly a satisfactory answer; you will ask how I come by those dreams! It isa long story, difficult to describe."He looked first at Alex<strong>and</strong>ra then questioningly at <strong>Konrad</strong>. He seemed to see a long past vision. "As a young man inKilikia, where I grew up, I became the apprentice of a goldsmith who was an old Sufi." He paused. A smile passed overhis face. "You see, my father <strong>and</strong> gr<strong>and</strong>father belonged to a professional Sufi brotherhood called the Halveji. That is howmy name came about, my gr<strong>and</strong>father was simply known as Gregor the Halveji. The members of this brotherhood wereall artisans; some printed books, others made jewelry, some were monks who painted miniatures."He seemed to have found a way to answer her question <strong>and</strong> his eyes became more lively. "Konstantin, my teacher, wasa very unusual goldsmith. Just as I try to, he only worked on commission for patrons he knew well, <strong>and</strong> all his designsreflected the personality of his patron. So, as nobody is exactly like anybody else, none of his designs were alike, butthey were always perfect complements to their owners. He never made much money in this way, but he worked for someof the most discriminating people of his time." He smiled at Alex<strong>and</strong>ra. "People like you, beautiful, sensitive, <strong>and</strong> ofexquisite taste.... It was a hard apprenticeship, because, like you, I could not comprehend how he came up with ever newforms. Often Konstantin would forbid me to work on a piece. He ordered me to sit for days silently with crossed legs in adark corner of the shop, <strong>and</strong> contemplate the lady I was working for, until I had completely identified myself with her. Ahard task for a young man, because the lady was, of course, unobtainable.""Forgive me, Sir," he looked at <strong>Konrad</strong>, "I know Alex<strong>and</strong>ra better than she does herself. I have thought about her so long<strong>and</strong> so intensely that I love her as deeply as her father does. And so, one day I woke up from my dreams <strong>and</strong> simply sawthe piece that fit her in all detail. After that it was only a matter of craftsmanship to make it."With great concentration Henri began to draw a shape on a piece of paper. "Look Alex<strong>and</strong>ra, you have changed since Ilast saw you. How do you like these shapes for another necklace for you?"It was a twice convoluted, interlocked arabesque looking distantly like an abstract water fowl. He repeated the shapeseveral times to form a circle of equal-sized links."It is fuller, more complex than the necklace I made for you years ago when you had just turned sixteen. I would say, thisshape is in love. With itself? With some one else?" He looked at her questioningly. "I don’t know which <strong>and</strong> have no rightto ask."Alex<strong>and</strong>ra flushed deeply. "Yes, as always, you look right through me."And then, as if from very far away, <strong>Konrad</strong> heard her say, "I am deeply in love with this man, <strong>Konrad</strong>, my serious, redbeardedGerman."<strong>Konrad</strong>’s face went pale <strong>and</strong> then flushed crimson. He was assailed by embarrassment which just as quickly changedinto an immense joy. For a few moments he fought this invasion of his soul. He would have liked to disappear. Alex<strong>and</strong>rarose <strong>and</strong> in supreme disregard of the penetrating eyes of the enigmatic Armenian stranger, put her arms around <strong>Konrad</strong>,<strong>and</strong> gave him a true kiss.Henri discreetly walked out of the room.And Alex<strong>and</strong>ra <strong>and</strong> <strong>Konrad</strong>, in that small goldsmith’s shop in the bazaar of Tiflis, held on to each other for dear life.For days they were unable to talk about what had happened at Henri’s shop. Bewildered by the sudden change of theirrelationship, they felt awkward in the presence of each other.20
Finally, depressed by his inability to act <strong>and</strong> show Alex<strong>and</strong>ra his happiness, <strong>Konrad</strong> returned to Henri who received himwith a surprised smile. <strong>Konrad</strong>, embarrassed, formally begged Henri to make, on his order, the necklace he had drawnfor Alex<strong>and</strong>ra.Henri, most unexpectedly, refused. "<strong>Konrad</strong> Yulevich, I find myself in a difficult situation. I had hoped to make thisnecklace as my wedding gift for Alex<strong>and</strong>ra. It would have been my way of making Alex<strong>and</strong>ra more than just a friend ofmany years. Now I have to atone for having precipitated the events at your last visit. I see that I misjudged the state ofyour <strong>and</strong> Alex<strong>and</strong>ra’s relationship <strong>and</strong> did both of you a disservice. I should not have provoked Alex<strong>and</strong>ra’s impulsivedeclaration of love. It was too early. I did not realize that."He paused <strong>and</strong> deep in thought stroked his chin. "If I make her a present of that necklace now, I will most certainly loseyou. I assure you, I am not your competitor for Alex<strong>and</strong>ra’s affection, but it may take years for you to underst<strong>and</strong> that. Onthe other h<strong>and</strong>, if you ask me to make this necklace <strong>and</strong> you pay for it, both of you will very probably lose me, becausemy guilt would grow, <strong>and</strong> the power in that necklace would be nil."Henri pressed his h<strong>and</strong>s together <strong>and</strong> touched his lips with his fingertips. In deep thought he remained silent for a while."You have to underst<strong>and</strong>," he said gently, "this necklace is no ordinary piece of jewelry the like you can buy in any storearound here. It is a magic circle which has the power to protect the woman who wears it <strong>and</strong> to make her more beautifulthan she ever imagined possible, but it can also destroy Alex<strong>and</strong>ra, your love, <strong>and</strong> me."After another silence a smile came over Henri’s face. "There would be a way out of this dilemma, to resolve thiscomplicated tangle: You make a necklace for Alex<strong>and</strong>ra with my help. You will have to dream up a design of your own,mine will not do, <strong>and</strong> then you can use my shop, <strong>and</strong> I will teach you all the necessary technical skills to make it. In thisway you can release us three from the evil powers of our last meeting."<strong>Konrad</strong> was deeply moved by the seriousness of Henri’s suggestion. But how could he make such a delicate thing? Howwould he, all by himself, come up with a design of his own? The task appeared insurmountable. But then he rememberedAlex<strong>and</strong>ra’s enthusiastic plan to design jewelry. He should be able to do what she considered possible!Curiously this thought gave him the wings to overcome his doubts. It was he who had to subject himself to this labor tosave his love for Alex<strong>and</strong>ra, to underst<strong>and</strong> her, <strong>and</strong> to get to know this enigmatic man."Yes," <strong>Konrad</strong> said simply, "that is what I must do."Henri hugged him spontaneously <strong>and</strong> gave him a kiss very much on the same spot where Alex<strong>and</strong>ra had.<strong>Konrad</strong> would later realize that Henri, by this hug <strong>and</strong> kiss, had quietly accepted him as his Sufi disciple."I know you feel overawed by the task of finding the right shape for the links of the necklace," said Henri withcompassion. "I suggest that you put a pencil <strong>and</strong> several pieces of paper into your pocket <strong>and</strong> whenever you have aspare moment you doodle with half-closed eyes all kinds of designs on that paper. Don’t at first envision them to becomelinks of a necklace, shake your h<strong>and</strong> <strong>and</strong> for a while just draw free forms."Henri found a piece of paper <strong>and</strong> drew a few examples."Have enough paper with you so that your doodles come out separate, <strong>and</strong> you can later pick out shapes you like. Whenyou have found a shape you think fits her, or if you get stuck, come back to me."At first <strong>Konrad</strong> felt sheepish doodling, but he had much time, <strong>and</strong> slowly this exercise took complete hold of him. Quiet<strong>and</strong> happy, he began to dream of shapes <strong>and</strong> necklaces in the early mornings.He had not seen Alex<strong>and</strong>ra for several days. He had no idea what had happened to her, but it seemed out of question forhim to call at the Dadiani’s townhouse in person. He finally scribbled a note <strong>and</strong> sent it to her. No answer.His longing for her grew, made his h<strong>and</strong>s clumsy, his designs became complicated <strong>and</strong> involved. He stopped himself <strong>and</strong>thought of Alex<strong>and</strong>ra’s gold necklace, its simple elegance suddenly seemed the only possible form suitable for thiswoman. He found that he could not think of a shape that could compete with those ringlets, they had been reduced totheir ultimate simplicity. Look, he finally told himself, a circle is a circle, there is no simpler form except that of a sphere,which was outside of his design task.He tried rows of ellipses of different sizes <strong>and</strong> discovered why in Henri’s necklace all links were of the same size. Itbestowed a formal strength <strong>and</strong> grace to the necklace that would be lost in meaningless playfulness if he graduated thelinks in size.Yes, he thought, the shape of the links must have a meaning that added up to a whole that reflected Alex<strong>and</strong>ra <strong>and</strong> hislove for her. But what form would express his complex affection? Stuck, he walked around with a hanging head forseveral days. Instinctively he knew that Henri could not resolve this impasse.One morning after his lecture a radiant Alex<strong>and</strong>ra stood in front of the Gymnasium carrying a long, wrapped roll. She flewinto his arms in front of all his students."Forgive me for avoiding you for such a long time without any explanation. I hid all by myself in Zaguramo for the entireweek. Come let me show you what I did."They went to Leist’s apartment, her first visit there, where she carefully unwrapped a strange woolen affair from herpackage.She held it up. 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