Claudia stood on the side <strong>and</strong> with serious eyes wistfully watched the exultant family scene until Alex<strong>and</strong>ra took her intoher arms, hiding her own tears.<strong>Konrad</strong> turned to them "How is your medical practice doing?"Claudia’s eyes lit up. "Alex<strong>and</strong>ra is performing miracles. Had I not seen her myself I would not believe it. She cured thesevere arthritic swellings of an old man."<strong>Konrad</strong> looked at his wife, who smiled quietly. He could see how happy she was to have him back."<strong>Konrad</strong>," Claudia said, "my father is inviting Alex<strong>and</strong>ra to come to Munich to help us write a paper on the psychologicalaspects of healing."<strong>Konrad</strong> sat up straight <strong>and</strong> shook his head. "Your father is interested in psychics?"Claudia glanced at Alex<strong>and</strong>ra, begging for her help. "Ever since father’s visit to the sema with you he has puzzled overthese phenomena. Now I have witnessed Alex<strong>and</strong>ra at work. Her results are fantastic, <strong>and</strong> she can explain what she isdoing better than anyone father <strong>and</strong> I have seen. Would you let her go? Please!"<strong>Konrad</strong> promised to think about it. He knew, of course, that Alex<strong>and</strong>ra would do exactly as she saw fit, <strong>and</strong> that he wouldlet her travel.Later that night, alone with him, Alex<strong>and</strong>ra told <strong>Konrad</strong> of her abortive attempt to search for him in China.Bewildered he took her into his arms <strong>and</strong> held her tight. "Dear woman, I vaguely sensed that you were in great danger,but could not guess what it was. I tried unsuccessfully to call you. I am relieved that Claudia watched over you."A few days later Alex<strong>and</strong>ra <strong>and</strong> Helena came home highly elated. Alex<strong>and</strong>ra had healed another patient, a woman withskin cancer, a small cancerous growth on the neck. Within the twenty minutes of her healing engagement, the growthhad simply melted down. Only a small remnant was left. This time Alex<strong>and</strong>ra shook her head in disbelief, whilst Helenawas almost ecstatic. How was this possible? Even modern radiation treatment could not have removed that growth in soshort a time.Helena made an inviting gesture with her h<strong>and</strong>. "I should learn this method, there are so many cases, which, if we arehonest, are in effect intractable. First arthritis <strong>and</strong> now cancer!""But look Helena, my healings are only successful in one out of two or three cases. Most often nothing happens. Againlet us celebrate in a couple of months when I will know for sure that the remission is permanent. Nobody is cured ofcancer until he has been free of it for several years."This provoked another heated discussion on healing. Niko played the hardened skeptic. Faced with the incontrovertiblemedical facts that these two sober women reported, <strong>Konrad</strong> did not join him <strong>and</strong> asked, "What do you actually do?"She described how she sat in the corner, the patient reading in a chair. He was not actively involved in the healingprocess. As soon as she had conquered her mind, she concentrated all her energies on the patient.She stared into space. "I cannot describe this process well. I leave my physical body behind, it just sits there, <strong>and</strong> withpart of my ‘soul’ I ‘fly’ into this embrace. I get completely lost in the person <strong>and</strong> become one with him."She waved her h<strong>and</strong>. "That is all I can describe to you. I cannot explain how it works, I can give you only a general‘medical’ theory of what goes on in the patient."I think what happens is that I mobilize the patient’s immune system. The patient heals himself. Why the immune systemshould have been paralyzed before I cannot say. But I have the suspicion that in the cases which I have been able tocure, the patient has been suffering from a difficult psychological trauma or has problems in his family. In any case, laterthe euphoric patients invariably tell me of tormenting events that they feel are related to the illness. I will start asking mypatients questions. Maybe I will learn why I am successful in some <strong>and</strong> not in other cases."<strong>Konrad</strong> had listened with great concentration, chin in h<strong>and</strong>. "Do you think you could teach this to others, say to Helena?"Alex<strong>and</strong>ra stared at him <strong>and</strong> then said animatedly. "I have been looking for a way to experimentally prove my theory.Your suggestion would be an excellent test of my underst<strong>and</strong>ing."Claudia objected. "I have not been able to learn to heal or to fly, although I have been involved with you or watched youwork several times. Alex<strong>and</strong>ra, you were born with this talent. I am awed by your healing. I am even scared by it. As wehave both found out since Adishi, it is dangerous to let one’s shadow-soul fly out of body. Look, Alex<strong>and</strong>ra, you had thisspontaneous experience when Otto was born, which took away your fears <strong>and</strong> makes it possible for you to experiment atthe edge of death in ways that scare me. You cannot expect this fearlessness in others. I don’t think you could or shouldteach your method to others.""You have only to lose your fear of death!" mumbled Alex<strong>and</strong>ra.Niko pulled a face. "Lexako, you are presumptuous.""No, not at all!"But Alex<strong>and</strong>ra knew that she could not explain her approach in the presence of everybody."<strong>Konrad</strong>, will you let me go to Munich for three weeks next year?"<strong>Konrad</strong> smiled. She had l<strong>and</strong>ed not particularly elegantly or heroically, <strong>and</strong> stood on solid ground again."I know that I cannot keep you back, München is too much of a temptation for you. Maybe it will do you good to have todefend your effusive feelings of success in presence of your skeptical friend Dahl. We are no match for you any longer—do go!"178
Alex<strong>and</strong>ra was relieved <strong>and</strong> happy, <strong>and</strong> all forgave her once more her euphoric arrogance. She would come to Munich inthe spring of 1913.When Niko <strong>and</strong> Claudia left, Claudia hugged Alex<strong>and</strong>ra. "You said you envied me our intellectual life in Munich, butwhenever I am with you the most unexpected things happen. Thank you, Alex<strong>and</strong>ra, for this most stimulating time. Whenyou come, you must teach me how to get over my fears, will you?"In September 1913 Tamara’s ambitions were ambushed by fate. She came to see Alex<strong>and</strong>ra at her office to tell her thatshe was pregnant. Alex<strong>and</strong>ra inquired carefully. "What do you want to do?""I want to have the baby! You finished your degree when you were pregnant, why should I not be able to do the same?The more complicated problem is how to tell my father?""I could help you there. But will you agree to marry Vladimir?"Tamara lowered her head. "Yes," she said almost inaudibly."Then it should be possible to solve your problems. Send me that future husb<strong>and</strong> of yours, <strong>and</strong> I will tell him what he hasto do."Alex<strong>and</strong>ra began to laugh. "Chin up! Now I want to know the exact date on which you conceived <strong>and</strong> the exact dates ofyour last two periods. You promised me this information for my statistics, do you remember?"Tamara blushed. She had kept a careful diary of these dates over the years, which had helped her from getting pregnant.This time they had been overcome by passion. It happened exactly in the middle between her periods.Alex<strong>and</strong>ra had a conference with Vladimir at her office. He joked embarrassed when he entered. "Doctor Dadiani-Rost, Iam suffering from a case of dementia that needs immediate attention before I flip out completely."Alex<strong>and</strong>ra did not pull his leg or give him a lecture, she was brief <strong>and</strong> matter of fact. He should write a letter to IrakliDadiani asking for his help in persuading David Dadeshkeliani to cede him his daughter in marriage. He should notmention Tamara’s condition."I will write to my father,” she added, “explain the urgency of your request, <strong>and</strong> ask him to offer his house for yourwedding, so that Tamara would not have to ride to Svaneti in her condition."She looked him straight in the eye. "We have to shield Tamara from the prying eyes of the Svani. I am sure my father willoffer his house for the occasion. He can work out the details with David."Vladimir smiled gratefully <strong>and</strong> kissed her outstretched h<strong>and</strong>. Alex<strong>and</strong>ra flipped her h<strong>and</strong> around, palm up. She laughed."Sir, this consultation will be twenty rubles. You are not indigent. To get off with a mere h<strong>and</strong>-kiss is far too cheap!"He went purple, <strong>and</strong> she gently shoved him out the door."Be well <strong>and</strong> pull yourself together, old friend!"A week later Alex<strong>and</strong>ra <strong>and</strong> Helena prepared a charming, informal engagement party for the pair <strong>and</strong> their friends.Vladimir discussed his predicament with his father, who finally gave him the dressing down he deserved. His fatherpraised Alex<strong>and</strong>ra’s suggestions <strong>and</strong> regretted that Vladimir had never introduced him to this long-st<strong>and</strong>ing friend. "Youwere invited to her parent’s house in Tiflis, why have you never brought her to our country house?"Vladimir mumbled something about Alex<strong>and</strong>ra being very busy as a physician, <strong>and</strong> added reproachfully that since hismother’s death their home missed the hostess who could have received this unusual woman. For the same reason hehad never taken Tamara home either. The conversation ended with Vladimir’s father inviting all his close friends to spenda weekend with him in the country.When he told Alex<strong>and</strong>ra of the invitation, she called his father to thank him <strong>and</strong> offered that she would feel honored <strong>and</strong>happy to act as Vladimir’s female protectress in the forthcoming wedding proceedings.At first Vladimir’s father was taken aback by her unusual suggestion, but then, the practical politician he was, turned thematter around <strong>and</strong> teasing her most charmingly, offered Alex<strong>and</strong>ra the vacant place at his side. Would he be allowed toinvite her for dinner at a restaurant of her choice to make her acquaintance?<strong>Konrad</strong> suggested that she go on this mission without him.Alex<strong>and</strong>ra smiled. She was about to fulfil the role as lover, sister, <strong>and</strong> mother to Vladimir with which <strong>Konrad</strong> had teasedher. She dressed carefully, elegantly but not seductively. Vladimir’s father, all gentleman, picked her up in the big car.The familiar chauffeur did not blink an eyelash. A séparée with a table for two awaited them at the restaurant.Completely relaxed, they enjoyed the excellent food <strong>and</strong> a bottle of Premier Gr<strong>and</strong> Cru Pommard 1907. Since the horridevening with Manovsky she had not eaten in such gr<strong>and</strong> style.M. Nomikoff apologized that Vladimir had spent weeks at her parent’s house, <strong>and</strong> he, for lack of a wife <strong>and</strong> hostess, hadnever invited her <strong>and</strong> her husb<strong>and</strong>. He tactfully inquired about her Georgian background, her father’s profession, hermother. Alex<strong>and</strong>ra described her childhood: Uncle Ilia Chavchavadze, rides through the beautiful Georgian countryside.Slowly <strong>and</strong> almost imperceptibly M. Nomikoff steered the conversation to Vladimir’s visit to Svaneti. He had, of course,heard many tales of the beauty <strong>and</strong> wildness of this part of Georgia. Alex<strong>and</strong>ra teased him about his romantic notions,<strong>and</strong> then remarked that he was about to acquire a daughter-in-law from one of the oldest Georgian families."You are right, Mrs. Dadiani-Rost, I do probably have a rather distorted concept about the Dadeshkeliani. I am ashamedthat I have never met Tamara, so many things have been neglected since my wife died." He thoughtfully studied his large179
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