Affectionately,Lexako VI. 12. 1904She received a note by return messenger.Dear Lexako,Will you permit me to call you by this affectionate name? I shall pick you up at your house with our car at eight sharp.Expecting to be baffled!Your pseudo-YogiThe event turned out to be a glittering gathering of the rich <strong>and</strong> beautiful people of St. Petersburg without a trace of aséance. Chauffeured cars crowded the access to the electrically illuminated palais of Prince Volkonsky. Liveriedattendants held the car doors open <strong>and</strong> collected the guests’ cartes de visites on silver platters. Amused she noticed thatVladimir, with a slight of h<strong>and</strong>, retrieved his card unnoticed. The men wore black tie <strong>and</strong> the ladies fashionable dresses.Alex<strong>and</strong>ra was glad to wear a conservative blouse <strong>and</strong> a loose skirt down to her ankles which would not attract anyunwanted attention.The entire ground floor had been opened to the guests, a buffet was laid out in the dining room, <strong>and</strong> attendants circulatedamong the crowd with fruit juices <strong>and</strong> iced yogurt drinks. Disappointed, Alex<strong>and</strong>ra could not detect any smell of hashish.They w<strong>and</strong>ered around. In a one room a photo of Mme. Blavatsky’s broad, pock-marked face with the protruding eyesframed by a black shawl, looked down on her famous books: Isis Unveiled, The Secret Doctrine, The Voice of Silence, allin English, printed in America—for sale at horrendous prices!Alex<strong>and</strong>ra shook her head. "Do the Theosophists need money?" she asked Vladimir with a derisive laugh.They met far fewer people whom they knew than Alex<strong>and</strong>ra had expected. But the next room held a surprise: of allpeople they ran into Marti Sisakian!She did not recognize him at first. He wore a Moslem cassock over baggy pants tied at the ankles, soft, leather boots,<strong>and</strong> a turban. A gaily-colored shawl was wound around his waist."Marti," cried Alex<strong>and</strong>ra hugging him, "have you converted to Islam? Where is Izabel, is she hiding in a chador? What isthis getup, <strong>and</strong> where have you been all these years?"Two years ago Marti <strong>and</strong> Izabel had gone to Armenia <strong>and</strong> never returned.Marti blushed <strong>and</strong> retorted. "Where is <strong>Konrad</strong>?" And with an inquisitive look shook Vladimir’s h<strong>and</strong>. "You have not gotdivorced, Alex<strong>and</strong>ra, during your crazy medical studies?"Alex<strong>and</strong>ra laughed. "Of course not, <strong>Konrad</strong> is in Munich <strong>and</strong> Vladimir volunteered to escort me to this party. Butseriously, what are you doing here among the Theosophists?""Impetuous Georgian friend, one question at a time. I am selling my paintings, the labor of the past two years. And the‘Moslem getup,’ as you call it, is a simple sales ruse. I am as poor a Moslem as I am a bad Christian or Theosophist. Youwill find Izabel somewhere among this crowd of wealthy sympathizers of the enigmatic Blavatsky. She is hiding in veryregular clothes.""You two, Theosophists?" Alex<strong>and</strong>ra asked with raised eyebrows."Chère Alex<strong>and</strong>ra, we joined the Theosophists in Paris a long time ago. For obvious reasons we didn’t talk about that onthe train from Berlin, <strong>and</strong> later you were so single-mindedly preoccupied with exploring your reality that you never foundout! But how is Otto? He had just been born when we left for Yerevan. Did you have any more children since then?""No, he is our only one so far. He is four <strong>and</strong> keeps me <strong>and</strong> a governess on our toes. I just finished my medical degree,<strong>and</strong> for the first time I am able to devote myself entirely to him <strong>and</strong> the pleasures of St. Petersburg. You must come <strong>and</strong>see us soon. When did you get back?"Marti placed his h<strong>and</strong>s behind his ears <strong>and</strong> bowed deeply in a mock-Muslim gesture. "Congratulations! Izabel was notsure that you two would survive this ordeal. We returned from Samark<strong>and</strong> two weeks ago. But come, let me show youthe paintings, they tell all that has happened to us."Along the walls hung a number of colorful paintings interspersed with photographs, obviously scenes in Armenia <strong>and</strong>Central Asia."Izabel took these photographs. She has become quite good at that. Look here, you know this view."A picture of the Blue Bath in Tiflis hung next to one showing Marti, sitting on a dais, being scrubbed with copiousamounts of soap suds by a bath attendant.She laughed. "I like this one especially. You spent some time in Tiflis?""We spent two months in Georgia, then we moved on to Yerevan. Look, here are the paintings from Armenia. We lovedit, the sun, the colors, the people. There are so many stones in Armenia, you cannot believe it. This is Mount Araratfloating above the clouds seen from Yerevan. The ruins of Svartnots in Echmiadzin. This is a scene in a village at the footof the lava flows of Mt. Alagöz. The people bake lavash <strong>and</strong> hang the bread on clotheslines to dry."Marti jumped from painting to painting excitedly rowing with his arms. She had never seen him so animated. She lookedcarefully at the paintings. What did they have to do with Theosophy? His palette consisted of bold, passionate, strongcolors, yellow <strong>and</strong> dark reds dominated, the shadows were deep blue. Bright green vines between red lava stones. The68
sky a thin, transparent blue. Imbedded in treeless mountains lay Lake Sevan, azure <strong>and</strong> turquoise. A church on a smallrock isl<strong>and</strong>.In places he had put the paint on with a knife, the painting’s surface a three-dimensional l<strong>and</strong>scape. She really liked theway he h<strong>and</strong>led his colors: figurative <strong>and</strong> highly expressionist."I had to work very rapidly, the sun would dry out the paint in no time. Because we speak Turkish <strong>and</strong> Farsi, we weresent to Turkestan. All other canvasses are from there. You have probably never seen paintings from Turkestan. Itbecame a real experience for me, it opened my eyes as a painter. Look here," he pointed at a painting of two Islamicbuildings with turquoise domes <strong>and</strong> huge tile mosaics over the entrance gates.He explained. "The Registran in Samark<strong>and</strong>, these are two of the three medreses surrounding that square, Sufi schools."He had outdone himself. His paintings had taken on an almost hallucinatory intensity, the sky a light green, the shadowsviolet, above ochre walls shimmered the turquoise <strong>and</strong> intensely blue-green domes of mosques, like jewels.The ruins of an immense, half-collapsed arch or ivan, like two crooked teeth in a broken jaw, tiny turbaned peoplest<strong>and</strong>ing below. A large, green-tiled square on the otherwise bare, burnt sienna surface."You are looking at the remains of Tamerlan’s once fabulous, Aq Serai, the ‘White Palace’ in Shakh-i-Zabz, south ofSamark<strong>and</strong>. Tamerlan was born in this dusty town, <strong>and</strong> his father lies buried there like a saint."Alex<strong>and</strong>ra stared at the painting trying to imagine the size of this ruin. "Marti, would you sell me this painting? I would liketo give it to <strong>Konrad</strong> for his birthday."Marti gave her a grateful look. "<strong>Konrad</strong> would like Turkestan. I have not sold anything today."A servant called the guests to the buffet in the large dining room.Suddenly Izabel stood before them. For a split second she was baffled <strong>and</strong> then hugged Alex<strong>and</strong>ra. "Oh, I knew it! Onmy way here, I had a premonition that I would meet you tonight. Did I lure you here?"The buffet was overloaded with exotic Indian dishes all new to Alex<strong>and</strong>ra, no alcohol <strong>and</strong> no wine.After some initial hesitation, Alex<strong>and</strong>ra developed a real taste for the strange vegetable <strong>and</strong> rice dishes <strong>and</strong> gorgedherself. The spices literally exploded in her mouth. She discovered that the food was entirely vegetarian. A "Caucasianchicken" in a thick sauce turned out to be small, peeled aubergines in an almond sauce, highly spiced with cardamom. Itcame with a saffron <strong>and</strong> pistachio pilaf decorated with glazed peach slices.She finally learned to distinguish between the rich <strong>and</strong> beautiful <strong>and</strong> the Theosophists, who, like Izabel, were dressedquite modestly. Alex<strong>and</strong>ra blended in very well."You seem to recognize nobody in this glittering gathering of the St. Petersburg intelligentsia," said Vladimir in a lowvoice. "But look, over there is the painter Ilia Repin with his homely wife. The ravishing beauty with the big hat next to himis Maria Andreyeva, the sister of the playwright <strong>and</strong> mistress of Maxim Gorky, the boyish looking man with the long hairnext to Repin.With a tilt of his head he pointed at two older gentlemen. "The man with the curled mustache tips is Pyotr Stolypin, he istalking to Graf Sergey von Witte, our dismissed financial genius. Both are feared <strong>and</strong> disliked by the Emperor, because oftheir intelligence <strong>and</strong> outspoken criticism of the Emperor’s indecisive reign. Stolypin, in my father’s opinion, is the onlyman in Russia who could save the unstable situation. Why these two are here, I don’t know. Gratefully absent are thehard-core revolutionaries, the military, <strong>and</strong> the clergy as well as all members of the extended imperial family. They followother gurus."Alex<strong>and</strong>ra scrutinized the two politicians. "I have never seen Witte."She stared at the slightly corpulent Witte. He had the high forehead of a professor posturing fully aware of hisimportance. She lowered her gaze <strong>and</strong> in a conspiratorial voice said. "Witte is a relative of Helena Petrovna Blavatsky<strong>and</strong> a distant, younger cousin of my mother. He does look exactly like Mother used to describe him, highly intelligent,incisive, enlightened, <strong>and</strong> powerful. I am not surprised that the Tsar dismissed him despite his success at bringing Russiainto the twentieth century."After supper everyone moved into the ballroom where a gaunt, sinewy, Indian fakir demonstrated yoga. The man woreonly a loincloth. He went through a sequence of impossible contortions of his limbs <strong>and</strong> ended up st<strong>and</strong>ing on his head."To st<strong>and</strong> on the head <strong>and</strong> wiggle my feet, that I can do too," whispered Alex<strong>and</strong>ra to Izabel, "but the other positions aretoo complicated <strong>and</strong> entirely unnecessary to gain insight."Izabel put an admonishing finger to her lips.Everybody applauded."This man is a Kundalini master," said Izabel. "These positions are not for you to imitate. I cannot produce them either."The fakir retreated to the back of the room, where he lit a charcoal brazier. The gentleman introduced the "Tibetan"pharmacologist, Doctor Pyotr Alex<strong>and</strong>rovich Badmaev."Oh, well, Tibetan!" whispered Vladimir. "That charlatan. He is an urbanized Buryat shaman with a questionable medicaldegree who sells powders <strong>and</strong> cough remedies to the gullible ladies of the better society. My mother once consultedhim."The stocky Badmaev sat self-important with crossed legs on a carpet <strong>and</strong> displayed an array of medicines. With amonotonous voice <strong>and</strong> a strong accent he explained their origins <strong>and</strong> use. A number of women flocked around him.69
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