Alex<strong>and</strong>ra shot him a glance, which Niko acknowledged with a toss of his head. "Stop it, Lexako!"Vladimir smiled. "I hear that you, Alex<strong>and</strong>ra, were abducted in Georgia just before you got married. Is that a true story ora libelous rumor? In Russia we have a very romantic image of Georgia."<strong>Konrad</strong> held his breath. Alex<strong>and</strong>ra flushed, but controlled, thought, that is what you get for playing with fire. Shedispassionately described the superficial facts of her abduction, her final rescue she mentioned only with a singlesentence: obviously she had survived.Vladimir commented that it sounded like an old Georgian epic, he joked: "The ‘Lady in the Panther Skin!’". Alex<strong>and</strong>rasilently forgave him, for reasons which she could not have explained. The others were more concerned with theuppermost level of her story. Becky shook herself. "What a horrible thing to happened to you. You must have beenfrightened. I would have fainted." Niko laughed. "You don’t know my sister, she is not easily frightened, <strong>and</strong> especiallynot by a man."Alex<strong>and</strong>ra gave him a grateful smile.Pokerfaced, Vladimir winked at Alex<strong>and</strong>ra, which she would not forgive him. One question Alex<strong>and</strong>ra was curious about,how had the story of her abduction reached Vladimir’s ears? "Oh," he said casually, "that rumor circulated long beforeyou arrived. You are famous in St. Petersburg. I find you quite remarkable, not because you disarmed your Georgianabductor—obviously you knew your Georgian men well enough—but because you faced down the self-important St.Petersburg university officials. A pregnant lady! And you seem to be perfectly capable of holding your own. I doff my hatto you, Princess Alex<strong>and</strong>ra Dadiani-Rost, first class!"In different circumstances Alex<strong>and</strong>ra would have slapped his face. "Well," she said with a seductive smile <strong>and</strong> a cuttingvoice, "now that you have met this famous lady, I give you permission to circulate your impression of her. I would bepleased to hear your high opinion repeated from another directions."<strong>Konrad</strong> frowned <strong>and</strong> asked Becky whether it would be possible to see her father’s collection. Marti joined him. Thecollection was rumored to be one of the largest private collections of contemporary French paintings outside of France. Aflattered Becky indicated that during her parents’ absence she could easily arrange a tour of the house. A date was setfor December.That night, after everyone had left, <strong>and</strong> they had washed the dishes together, <strong>Konrad</strong> made love to Alex<strong>and</strong>ra. He wasvery gentle <strong>and</strong> considerate with her. In the middle of his efforts she suddenly began to laugh her father’s laugh. <strong>Konrad</strong>stopped disarmed."Oh," she said tentatively, "it just occurred to me that you are making love to Becky!"<strong>Konrad</strong> sat up, how did she know that his mind was distracted by the petite, voluptuous Becky?"Look, it is not hard for a woman to guess what a man is thinking when he is so close to her, but the reason that Ilaughed was that I too was in bed with Vladimir—that lout. What are we going to do about these crossed attractions?"<strong>Konrad</strong>, still numbed by her sixth sense, had not much to suggest. He would try to make an honest effort to put Becky outof his mind."Ah, nonsense,"said his dear wife, "that wouldn’t help much. Every time you got close to her, you would be boiling over,<strong>and</strong> if I slapped this man for his insolence, all I would accomplish is to increase his arrogance. The only way to shut himup would be to take him to bed. There words don’t count, either he is a man, or he is a conceited coward with impertinentmanners."<strong>Konrad</strong> looked doubtful, hers was a tricky approach, but he did see her female logic, <strong>and</strong> since his preoccupation withBecky had to do with a woman, her argument could also be applied to him. "But wouldn’t this be premeditated adultery?"He asked. "Legally yes," she said, "but not, if we both underst<strong>and</strong> that it makes our love stronger <strong>and</strong> us freer."He sighed, he would have to think about her proposition. "For a while, my dear," Alex<strong>and</strong>ra laughed, "you don’t have toworry that you might find your bed empty one night, in my condition my abilities to seduce a man are rather limited!"She easily rekindled his desire, <strong>and</strong> he, now completely focused on her, took her more ardently than he had intended.17.A visit to Becky's museum1900After weeks of leaden skies, icy fog, snow, <strong>and</strong> slush in the streets the day they were to meet at Becky’s greeted themwith a sharp wind, blinding sunshine, <strong>and</strong> a biting cold under a deep blue sky. The air was filled with fine, windblownsnow crystals that piled into drifts along the fences <strong>and</strong> houses. Their apartment, which had been depressingly dark for58
months, was flooded with the diffuse reflected light.They arrived in high spirits. Becky’s house, an art nouveau villa near the Taurichevsky Gardens, seemed to float in thecold light. The white two-story building was adorned by a staircase with stained glass windows. Along the upper level rana mosaic of semi-nude mermaids floating in blue irises. Swinging floral reliefs framed the windows. They climbed a flightof broad steps to the main entrance, under a balcony embellished with a h<strong>and</strong>-wrought iron arabesque: Ostentatious, butof uniform style <strong>and</strong> in the best taste.Becky ushered her guests into an intimate salon where she served Earl Grey tea <strong>and</strong> petit-fours from the best Frenchbakery in town.<strong>Konrad</strong> looked around. The interior decor <strong>and</strong> the furniture complemented the outside, leaving the impression that herfather had given free h<strong>and</strong> to a carefully selected architect <strong>and</strong> interior decorator.In contrast to the subtle decor the paintings were overbearing. They covered the walls of the foyer, the living room, <strong>and</strong> alarge formal dining room in two <strong>and</strong> three tiers up to the ceiling.On a first superficial inspection Alex<strong>and</strong>ra recognized only a few: two Renoirs, a southern French l<strong>and</strong>scape by Cezanne,<strong>and</strong> a horse-racing scene, probably by Degas. Two large, disturbingly colorful canvasses, a turbulent l<strong>and</strong>scape <strong>and</strong> apair of provocative, dark-skinned nudes, she could not place. Marti explained that the Tahitian women were by PaulGauguin <strong>and</strong> the Provençal l<strong>and</strong>scape by Vincent van Gogh.Marti became very agitated. Unable to sit still, he stared spellbound at the Gauguin. Umoved by their excitement, Beckylazily offered to take them around, if Marti would explain the paintings.<strong>Konrad</strong> stood rooted before the Gauguin. It showed a tropical beach. A triangular stretch of hot-pink s<strong>and</strong> slanteddiagonally across half the canvas. The two voluptuous Tahitian women, both stark naked, dominated the foreground.One was lying, highly foreshortened, with the head to the viewer. The other sat facing them, one leg bent up, the otherangled underneath. In the background a horse drank from a colorful pond of paint in which a third woman took a bath.<strong>Konrad</strong> declared the painting outright obscene but then moderated his judgement. "On second consideration, it is not thenudity that disturbs me as much as the outrage of the colors, the pink s<strong>and</strong> in particular. It has already burned atriangular hole into my retina."Marti meekly defended the freedom of expression of an artist. Dissatisfied with Marti’s apology, Alex<strong>and</strong>ra, overcome byexcitement, brushed all conventional decorum aside. "Look, what offends you is the unveiled sexuality that this paintingconveys. Sex is a part of life, how to show it in a painting? Gauguin dares to express the emotional heat he felt by hiscolors. His two nudes are in themselves completely innocent, the visual implications <strong>and</strong> the arousal are only in the mindof the observer—<strong>and</strong> that of the painter. Maybe Gauguin was as shocked by the Tahitian women as you are now. Hisskill succeeded in making you feel it."<strong>Konrad</strong> got a red face, embarrassed he stared at her in restrained silence."I admire you, Alex<strong>and</strong>ra," said Marti. "You dare say such things openly. That is exactly what the critics in Paris shouldhave said. After an initial sc<strong>and</strong>al, Gauguin was ostracized as a barbarian for decades."<strong>Konrad</strong> moved out of Alex<strong>and</strong>ra’s way <strong>and</strong> turned to Becky, but she was absentmindedly lost in her own dark sensuality.She had nothing to say that could rescue him.Marti tried to lead them to other, less provocative paintings in the next room.Still tingling from her attack on <strong>Konrad</strong>, Alex<strong>and</strong>ra stayed behind. She was not yet finished with these paintings. She triedto concentrate on Van Gogh’s wildly swirling sky. It radiated the hallucinating heat of Tuscany <strong>and</strong> the play of light <strong>and</strong>shade under the trees brought back the afternoon when, under such an olive tree, she had conceived the child shecarried. She put her h<strong>and</strong> on her belly <strong>and</strong> felt the child move.What had happened to her men? They trailed this spoiled, mindless child-woman Becky. Vladimir, her challenge, whomshe had wanted to seduce <strong>and</strong> destroy, had turned out to be a pretentious, sarcastic talker. He had lost his eloquenceamong these paintings. He was out of his depth. He lacked a strong sense for the visual. How could he presume to writepoetry without visions?And <strong>Konrad</strong>? His whole body slouching, visibly annoyed by the ‘hole in his retina,’ he was seeking solace from thiswoman. She knew that Becky would fade from his mind, being wiped out by the power of Gauguin.She turned to the other van Gogh, a touchingly bare, blue room with a bed <strong>and</strong> a rickety red chair. Marti had mentionedthat van Gogh had become deranged <strong>and</strong> had spent his last years in an insane asylum in Arles. He died in that bare,blue room.Insanity?Could insanity be a possibility in her life? Could her vibrant spontaneity turn into madness? Dizziness overcame her. Shesat down on a chair <strong>and</strong> closed her eyes. Gauguin’s pink seemed to flood the room. With an effort she concentrated allher energy on the kicking child in her belly. And then she knew that her female body <strong>and</strong> her eyes, yes, her eyes, wouldprotect her from going insane.She gave herself a push <strong>and</strong> got up.She found sweet, blond Nina, tears running down her cheeks, st<strong>and</strong>ing alone before a small painting to which none ofthe others had paid any attention.59
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