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Comfortable Madness First PDF 4-13-18

Release They sent me

Release They sent me home. It was morning and I stood in the lobby waiting. I wanted a cigarette. I wanted to feel the wind on my face. In just a few minutes, I’d be out. No one could stop me. So I stood at the door and I waited. My fingertips scrubbed at the seam of my jeans. Nurses and techs, other people, the crazy people wandered around. No Gid. Maybe he’s gone, I thought. I wanted to be back to a normal life. I wanted to be the normal crazy girl. I wanted to be alone in my head. Through the window in the door, I saw Tayla. She waved and when she came in, I rushed into her arms. “Ready?” Tayla asked. We gathered my things and we went down the hall to the elevator. The closer we got to the parking lot, the more I wanted a cigarette. As soon as we cleared the doors, I lit up. We walked to the car. Ash filled my lungs. Tayla watched me, measuring my madness. She watched but said nothing. We drove passed trees, glass buildings and cars. We held hands. “Are you ready for this?” she asked. I nodded. I was. I was ready for anything.

Home Part of me thought things would be different. I mean, I’d been gone for a long time. The world had spun too many times. But nothing had changed. The walls were the same ivory color. The photos were in the same frames they’d been in for years. Even the voices I heard whispered their familiar messages. I came into the living room and stood for a moment taking everything in. Tayla came up behind me and wrapped her arms around my waist. She kissed the back of my neck. “You okay?” she asked. I nodded. I was home. Everything was fine. I shivered when Tayla’s hand rose from my hips to my tits. She kissed my neck again and rested her forehead again the back of my skull. I turned and found her lips. She tasted of cigarettes and cinnamon. Our room was down the hall. Walking was a little hard with Tayla stroking my ribs, pressing herself against my spine. We fell on the bed. It wasn’t long before we were naked and wet. We stroked and bit and kissed. We licked and used our fingers to lift each other into the hazy light. I felt almost human again.