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Confession<br />
Sleep abandoned me to the night and the night was long.<br />
Nausea twisted me into a miserable knot. I lay in bed listening to<br />
Tayla mutter. She was prone to nightmares and sometimes the<br />
nightmares leaked into the real world. A siren called from<br />
somewhere. Mr. Rothgery’s dog howled in sympathy.<br />
I tried to be still as possible. Moving brought on the<br />
vomiting. Not moving let it sit in the middle of me like a bag of<br />
snakes, wriggling and writhing. The room spun and the darkness<br />
pressed on me, a layer of sweat and cramps.<br />
When I couldn’t hold my stomach in place anymore, I<br />
stumbled into the bathroom and crawled into the shower. Hot water<br />
made me less sick. Hot water washed away the misery. Time was a<br />
trickle of stones rolling over my bones.<br />
I curled in the tub, praying to God to either heal me or let<br />
me die. He did neither. Gid whispered at me. He told me that I<br />
needed to tell Tayla about the baby. I didn’t want to say anything as<br />
long as there was a chance, things would change. I thought if I went<br />
with Coy to the doctor, the nausea, the agony of keeping secrets,<br />
would slip away. But I couldn’t bring myself to do anything with<br />
Coy.<br />
“This baby is changing things,” Gid said. “You are no<br />
longer who you were.”<br />
I shook my head.<br />
“Together,” Gid said. “We will last forever.”<br />
The water went cold. I twisted off the stream and stumbled<br />
out of the tub. My foot slipped but I caught myself and then it<br />
occurred to me that I could have let myself fall. If I fell just right,<br />
maybe the baby would come loose. I didn’t fall though, and I didn’t<br />
have it in me to drop on my own.<br />
Out in the bedroom, Tayla waited for me. She sat in the<br />
bed, eyes dark and swollen. Her hands picked at the blanket and she<br />
frowned like something sour had coated her tongue.