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Air seemed to slice through me. Part of me hid in a corner<br />
of my mind whimpering at me to stop.<br />
“We have to get this right,” I said. “Come on.”<br />
I held a hand out to Angie. She shook her head.<br />
“Sit down,” Tayla said.<br />
Something in her voice told me that she was scared. Tayla<br />
was scared. Tayla was never scared.<br />
“Butter,” she said. “I have something for you.”<br />
It was a threat. I bared my teeth, hissing.<br />
“It’ll help,” she said.<br />
She came and handed me a pill and a bottle of water.<br />
“You’re killing me,” I said.<br />
“No,” she said. “You know me. I’d never hurt you.”<br />
It was a lie. She hurt me all of the time. But she hurt me<br />
less than others. She tried not to hurt me. No one else cared enough<br />
to try even that much.<br />
“Ativan,” Tayla said. “It’ll help.”<br />
Wrestling with the rage and the powerlessness, I forced the<br />
pill into my mouth and washed it down with water. I sucked in a<br />
mouthful of warm air and went to the corner. My head dropped to<br />
my knees. My arms wrapped themselves around my shins.<br />
Jesus, I thought. My thighs are fucking huge.<br />
The only noise for a long time was my raspy breathing.<br />
“I should go,” Angie said.<br />
Soft feet walked on the hard floor. A nylon bag groaned.<br />
“Call me,” Angie said. “Lock up.”<br />
The door creaked a little and sunlight filled the studio for a<br />
moment. Tayla came and sat with me.<br />
“You okay?” she asked.<br />
She took my hand.<br />
“We’ll get through this,” she said.<br />
We? There was no we. There was me and the shit in my<br />
head. Tayla had no idea. Still, she tried.