ROMA-Holocaust

vu dar, shaj zhasas pe stancija. Gele kodi chorri
ke tani, ungrika ketani ande vagonura – kade
seroj man sar te adyes te avlas – lenge punre
avral sas shutime. Dikhnas amen thaj rovnas,
tele shude amenge manro, thaj pengi konzervi.
(…)
Khere reslem ando Tüskevári, chi ashilas amen -
ge khanchi pe luma. Ingerde amendar sako felo.
Muri lala azhukardas amen, ando Érdo beshlas,
las o mujalo chi mukhlas te ing ren. Voj aba
zhanglas ke ame khere avesa, azhu karlas amen
ando Tüskevári. Palyi tatyar das, thaj sakones tele
thovelas. Avri hulavlas ande amare bala le
zhuva, ke pherdyi samas zhuvenca. Mange
shukar thulyi, lungi bala sas, shordas pe muro
shero petroleumo, ke na kamlas tele te shingrel.
Amare gada opre phabardas.
Pinzharnas amen le manusha, denas mura
dake jekh cino chiken, jekh cino kolompiri, thaj
sakofelo. Numa muri lala chi mukhlas te but
xas, kodi phendas atunchi sa meras. Kerdas
amenge zumi, anro shutas andre thaj shut,
sakoneske avri shutas kattyi sode akanak slobodo
te xal. Aba mursha chi sas ande familija,
numa zhulya. Muri pheny atunchi sas trine
bershengi, korkores zhalas-phirlas ando kher, le
majbuten pashljonas ke kasavi slabi sas le. Nu -
ma atunchi ashnas opre kanak kernas jag, kanak
denas amenge te xas. Le romnya korkores ashi -
le, chi kode chi zhangle so te keren chorri.
Push nas sakonestar, le mursha trajin in ke.
Khonyik na zhanglas te phenel khanchi.
(…)
Pala kede gelem ande Zala. Ando Zalacsévo
beshamas, inja bershengi somas, thaj butyi ker-
szegény katonák, a magyar katonák, akiket vittek
a vagonyokba – úgy emlékszek rá, mintha
most lett volna – úgy lógtak kifelé a lábaik a
vagonyokbúl. Néztek bennünket, sírtak, oszt
dobálták le a kis kenyerüket, meg a konzervot,
amit nekik adtak ennyi.
(…)
Hazaértünk Tüskevárra, a világon semmink
nem maradt. Mindenünket elvittek. A nagynéném
várt bennünket, ô Érden lakott, ôket
nem engedte el a bíró. Megtudta, hogy engednek
minket haza, várt bennünket Tüskeváron.
Vizet melegített, megfürösztett egyenként.
Kifûsûlte a hajunkból a tetûket, mert annyi vót
bennünk, hogy az iszonyatos. Ahogy levette
rólunk a ruhát, úgy dobta bele a tûzbe. Gyö -
nyörû nagy hajam vót, vastag, aztán bepetróliumozta
a fejünket, mert sajnálta a hajunkat le -
vágni.
Ismertek minket az emberek, adtak anyámnak
egy kis zsírt, krumplit, mindent a világon.
Csak a nagynéném nem hagyta, hogy jóllakjunk,
mert akkor mind meghalunk. Rán tott
levest fôzött tojással, meg ecetet tett bele, mindenkinek
kimérte, hogy mit ehet egyszer re.
Fokozatosan fogtak fel minket az enni va ló ra.
Ugye, férfi nem vót a családba, csak a nôk. A
húgom akkor vót hároméves, egymaga mász -
kált a házba, a többi mind feküdt, idô sebbek,
fiatalabbak mind, annyira gyengék vó tak. Csak
annyira keltek fel, hogy tüzet rakjanak, meg
etessenek bennünket. Maguk vótak asszonyok,
azt sem tudták mit csináljanak szegények.
Tudakolódtak, életbe vannak, nin csenek-e a
férfiak. Senki sem tudott mit mondani.
They set us free, opened the gate. Every body
could go to the railway-station. Those poor soldiers
went. Hungarian soldiers in the wagons –
I remember as if it happened just now – there
feet were out of the wagons. They looked at us,
cried and threw their bred and tinned food to
us.
(…)
We arrived home to Tüskevár. We had lost
everything. They took away everything. My
aunt was waiting for us. She lived in Érd and the
judge did not let them take her. When she heard
that they had released us, she went and waited
for us at Tüskevár. She boiled water, and washed
us one by one. She combed the lice out of our
hair. That many lice in our hair was awful. The
minute she undressed us, she threw the clothes
on fire. I had beautiful, thick hair and she did
not want to cut it off, so she put paraffin on it.
People knew us, so they gave my mother a
little grease, potato and everything in the
world. But my aunt did not let us stuff ourselves,
because we could have died. She made
caraway-seed soup with egg, put vinegar in
it and measured the portions that each of
us could eat at once. We got used to eating
gradually. There were no men in the family, only
women. My sister was three years old. She
walked all alone in the house while the others
were lying in bed because they were so weak.
They only got up to make a fire and feed us.
The women were all alone and they did not
know what to do. They tried to find out
whether the men were alive, but nobody could
tell them.
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