THE PSYCHOLOGY OF SATANIC CULT INVOLVEMENT: AN ...

APPENDIX l(a)
SUBJECT ONE
S is a 19-year old white female trainee nurse. She is the adopted youngest chHd, and
has three brothers.
I: Could you please tell me in as much detaH as possible about your involvement in
Satanism, and what it meant for you.
Natural meanine units
Central themes
1. Although I was adopted at six months I 1. A's rebellious attitude began with the
never found out until standard five - that accidental discovery that she'd been
was the root of all my rebellion. Finding adopted as an infant.
out I was adopted was petrol on the fire.
2. Until then I was the top student in class, 2. Prior to discovering the fact of her
I was very goodat sports.
adoption she had been a successful scholar
and athlete.
3. Actually, I was a goodperson. 3. She regarded herself positively in moral
terms.
4. One day my parents hada fight, because 4. She discovered the truth of her adoption
myfather was an alcoholic, andit came out when her alcoholic father revealed it in the
in a fight when he was drunk - because of context of a marital altercation over her
me, I did something wrong and it came out. minor wrong-doing.
5. I couldn't accept it, it was a shock S. With the emotional inability to accept the
because I always knew there was something shocking discovery of her adoptive status
wrong, because my brothers would get came sudden insight into her brothers'
things I wouldn't get, pocket money, and privileged parental treatment.
things like that. There was always
something wrong and everything just fell
open then when I realised I was adopted.
6. I never had a relationship with my 6. S never experienced a meaningful
father, not with my mom or with my dad relationship with either parent.
7. Dadwas constantly drunk, from morning 7. Her father's constant drunken moods
to night. Some nights we had to leave the sometimes forced the family to vacate the
house because he was in such a mood house at night.
9. He also used to be very rough, and 9. S hated her father's roughness and his
relate to me like a son. I didn't know what relating to her as a boy rather than a girl.
to do, I was a girl but he treated me like a
boy. I hatedit.
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