THE PSYCHOLOGY OF SATANIC CULT INVOLVEMENT: AN ...

... you had to cut yourself. I used to take a
razor blade and cut my arms ... blood would
run over the floor.
65. Sometimes I used to enjoy it ... I used to
enjoy the pain ... I am a type for the pain, you
know. I got used to pain when my stepfather
used to hit me.
66. Andofcourse I would drink my own blood
I used to collect it in a jar and drink it every
now and then. At that moment I felt I was
gaining power. I was drinking my own blood
so I was becoming more ofmyself, getting more
involved in myself, you know. It's hard to
describe ... I was feeding on myself, in other
words. I was feeding on myself and growing
stronger.
67. I also had a pentagram in my home on my
floor. I would invite my friends to little
ceremonies, just to get them involved
own blood through self-mutilation.
65. E sometimes obtained masochistic
pleasure from self-mutilation, and
associated this pam with childhood
beatings from his stepfather.
66. E would collect and drink his own
blood, motivated by the fantasy that he
was growing stronger by incorporating
and feeding offhimself
67. E invited friends to attend his own
private ritual ceremonies in order to get
them involved in Satanism.
Could you tell me more about the demons that appeared to you?
68. Some of them were creatures with long 68. The demons that appeared to E varied
nails, like you see in horror movies. And some from winged or scaly animalistic figures
of them were like people, black people, but to black humanoid forms.
taller than a door. Some of them had scaly
skin like armour plating. Some had wings,
some were small, some were tall.
69. Ifyou didn't do what Satan wanted you to 69. E was punished for his disobedience
do he would send demons to get you. I used to by Satan, who sent demons to physically
get thrown about the room. My dad used to throw him around his room.
come to my room and I 'd be lying on the floor.
I would fly up against the ceiling and against
the walls.
Could you describe the feeling of having demons inside you?
70. It's like fire ... a burning fire ... hot coals 70. E likened possession by demons to the
inside you all the time. YDU 've $lot to keep on burning sensation of having hot coals
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