THE PSYCHOLOGY OF SATANIC CULT INVOLVEMENT: AN ...

96. Besides, [want to live as long as [can on
this earth 'cos it makes good sense to me. I've
developed the mentality that he had. He
expectedpeople to lay their lives down for him.
I won't lay my life down for nobody, but I
expect them to lay their life down for me. He
expects me to pour my blood out for him. To
hell with him, I'm not going to pour my blood
out for him. I know he wouldn't do it, so why
should I do it?
97. It's like allowing him to be reincarnate
inside me.
Let me pull his nature into me, let
me become like him, and think like him.
If I
can take on the mentality, his way of doing
things, then I've got that power. As long as he
stands behind me andpossesses me in that light
and everything, I've got the power that he's got,
as long as he stands behind me and enforces it
upon other people.
96. B's identification with Satan means that
he would not sacrifice himself for this selfish
god but, like Satan, expects others to
sacrifice themselves for him.
97. In his pursuit of power B consciously
seeks to incorporate Satan's nature and
identify with it, thereby sharing Satan's
strength and having it enforced by Satan
upon other people.
98. I have the authority. The church is subject
to me. Even though I may not be the high
priest, I've got power over the high priest. Ifhe
messes up I'll take his ass out.
98. B claims that he possesses Satan's
authority and therefore exercises power over
the high priest.
99. I mean, he's worshipping the very thing that
is actually possessing me. Virtually, I'm his
god.
99. B reasons that his identification with the
possessing spirit of Satan makes him the
object ofthe high priest's worship.
100. I never lost my personality or my identity.
It wasn't me, but I hadfull consciousness ofit, I
was aware ofit.
100. B was aware of the possessing spirit,
remaining conscious ofit without ever losing
his sense ofidentity.
101. It was like I could just walk up to
somebody, with a big smile on myface, andjust
pop their iUf!Ular vein, a very easy thin~ to do.
101. Despite his small physical stature B's
expenence of possession gave him the
strength to physically attack men much
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