THE PSYCHOLOGY OF SATANIC CULT INVOLVEMENT: AN ...

comes walking into the house - J saw Him. He
spoke to me ofmany personal things that would
shortly come to pass in my life.
involvement conflicted with his marital
partners' efforts to know and understand
him.
150. I could sense someone in the house. As I
turned around a bright transparent light in the
form of a human figure moved toward me
slowly.
151. I gazed into his face, it was pure light.
Everything around us felt so clean, holy and
pure. It was like time stood still ... you can't
put this into words. Waves ofpure white light
shot outfrom hisface and body.
135. B's attempts to prevent his partners
learning of his satanic identity ultimately
failed, and he experienced a sense of loss
when they terminated the respective
marriages upon discovering his involvement.
136. Satan's intense fear ofrejection and the
close relationship B shared with him, meant
that Satan had a human-like intuitive
sensitivity to B's intentions to leave the cult.
152. He was gentle, soft and approachable. He
didn't drive me away but drew me to him with
pulsating bursts of transparent, clear, laserbeam
light, dispersing into a spectrum, not
different colours, butjustpure white. At the tip
end ofeach ray oflight coming out His body,
shot out another soft ray oflight, andthen from
the tip-end of another one and so on ... pure,
blinding light ... but it didn't blind me.
137. B compares his blood covenant with
Satan to a marital contract, and Satan to a
marital partner who senses a disruption in the
marital relationship.
153. I was physically there, I didn't leave my
body. I touched myself, andI even reached out
to touch him. You couldn't touch him, but he
was tangible, the atmosphere the Lord's
presence created around us in the room was
tangible and could be seen, and looked like it
could be touched It was so real I reached out
to feel it with myfingers.
138. Satan's fear of rejection results in him
attempting to destroy anyone who tries to
leave his cult.
139. All of this creates changes in your life.
It's not that I'm totally out - do you ever really
~et out? I left it.fifteen years a~o. But sittin~
139. Although having left Satanism 15 years
ago, B questions whether he is really free of
it.
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