THE PSYCHOLOGY OF SATANIC CULT INVOLVEMENT: AN ...

get stabbed it was like me doing it, you know. I
couldn't handle it.
57. And I used to get punished for that, you
know. Satan was angry, very angry. He was
out to get me. I'd get headaches and boils all
over my body. You see, ifyou don't do what
they want you to do they curse you, they send
demons to harm you.
58. I was very wary ofcrossing streets, because
something could just push me in front of a
truck. I became a very nervous kind ofperson,
always wondering ifI was going to be next.
59. You are constantly warned that ifyou leave
the coven, or don't do what they tell you,
they'll get back at you or your family... they
controlyou.
60. I could control people. I found out that I
could look at a person and will that person to
cross over the street, and they'd do it. I could
will them to walk back over the street.
61. You had a fair amount ofpower as long as
you kept within the boundaries of Satanism.
The moment you stepped out you'd lose all
your power. Somebody else would be higher
than you.
62. I could summon more demons from those
who I didn't consider worthy, summon their
demons into me andgain more power.
63. When I did that it showed other people that
I had the power and could do it, you know.
They respected me for that. It felt good, that
respect. Nobody respected me when I was
younger.
64. But then I started cutting myselfto appease
the demons. Satan was punishing me, torturing
me. I had to do something. It was like an ur~e
caused in the past prompted him to
identifY with the infant's murderer, and
feel intensely guilty.
57. E believed that Satan was extremely
angry and punished his disloyalty by
sending demons to possess him, thereby
causing headaches and outbreaks of boils
on his body.
58. E became anxious and hypervigilant,
fearing that Satan intended to kill him.
59. E felt controlled by the coven through
threats of punishment should he disobey
his instructions or attempt to leave the
cult.
60. E believed he could exert supernatural
control over others' actions by willing
them to obey unspoken instructions.
61. E's considerable supernatural power
was contingent upon his satanic
membership.
62. E obtained more powers by
summoning and appropriating the demons
of other Satanists he perceived to be
unworthy.
63. E's appropriation of others' demonic
powers earned him the gratifYing respect
absent in his youthful interactions with
people.
64. To appease Satan and his demons,
who E perceived as punishing his
disloyalty, he felt compelled to shed his
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