THE PSYCHOLOGY OF SATANIC CULT INVOLVEMENT: AN ...

91. To make matters worse, they were all 91. S's attempts to promote Satanism were
intent on makingfriends with me.
further fiustrated by Christians who were
determined to befriend him.
92. No matter how hard I tried to avoid 92. S felt distressed by Christians who
them they always found me and simply loved him, despite his best attempts to
loved me.
avoid them.
93. Then I met a beautiful woman who I 93. S began a mutually committed love
had met many years before when I was in relationship with an older woman.
high school. Even though she was much
older than me I fell in love with her and
knew that she was the one I wanted to
spend the rest ofmy life with. She also fell
for me andwe starteda relationship.
94. I figured that I had found someone I 94. S thought that by converting his lover
could convert and make my satanic soul to Satanism he would gain a satanic soul
mate.
mate.
95. What I did not know was that despite 95. S did not realise that his lover was a
her weak points she was a Christian with committed Christian.
immense faith in the LordJesus Christ.
96. I could not tell her about my
involvement in the occult. I loved her and
could not bear to see such a beautiful
woman hurt.
97. With all these new feelings oflove and
all these people loving me, I got very
confused and started doubting Satanism, as
something inside me said, "This is good".
98. I stopped doing Satan's work. Being in
a town where none of the Satanists knew
me, and the various covens I had been with
in the past had no contact with me, I had
no problems. Well, not atfirst, anyway.
99. I still drank a lot of alcohol, and was
sleeping with a woman I was not married
to. What was worse was that she was still
married to a man in prison.
96. Because S loved his partner and wished
to protect her from hurt, he did not reveal
his satanic involvement to her.
97. The contradiction between S's satanic
identity and his new experience of loving
and being loved, made him feel confused
and question his satanic commitment.
98. Having severed contact with other
satanic covens, and not knowing any
Satanists in his new town, S felt safe
enough to cease his satanic activities.
99. Despite no longer being a practising
Satanist, S's life-style did not conform to
Christian principles.
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