THE PSYCHOLOGY OF SATANIC CULT INVOLVEMENT: AN ...

about what I was involved in. I'd dream of horror of his satanic involvement, which he
sacrifices and see the demons for what they no longer experienced in waking life.
really were - ghastly, hideous creatures.
143. I was afraid to be left alone. 143. E felt afraid ofbeing left alone.
144. I'd hear voices in my head as the 144. E interpreted internal voices to be
demons argued amongst themselves. squabbling demons that had possessed him.
145. My guide took over my body 145. E's original demonic spirit assumed all
completely, andI had no control anymore. control ofE's body.
J46. IfI watched a sad movie, people would 146. Although tearful at times, E felt
tell me that I cried I never knew I cried, completely numb and devoid ofemotion.
although the tears were there to prove it. I
felt nothing, absolutely nothing.
I: Did Satan ever physically appear to you?
Natural meaning units
147. Yes ... um, look - Satan can disguise
himself as an angel of light, like the Bible
says. And he can change shape and appear
to you as your mind would portray an
important person. He will appear to you in
thatform.
J48. But what he looks like doesn't really
draw you, what draws you is his eyes. Its
like everything else around you fades, you
just see his eyes. Its very awe-inspiring, it's
very ... evil - there's no other word to
describe it, it'sjust evil.
Central themes
147. Satan's appearance changes and adapts
to conform to each Satanist's expectations of
what he would look like.
148. In Satan's visible manifestations, E felt
a sense of awe and compelling attraction to
the evil he perceived in Satan's eyes..
149. His eyes can invoke fear in you. I 149. E feared Satan because Satan had such
feared him in a lot of different ways. I power over him that he could take his life at
feared him because he had a hold over my any time.
life. And he can just say, "End it", and
that's the way it is. You know he's got all
the power.
J50. Satan appeared to me as the perfect 150. Satan appeared to E as the idealized
person, very refined and cultured, somebody personification of a person who commanded
I respected, somebody I would be committed admiration, commitment, and respect.
to, somebody who could command my
attention.
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