THE PSYCHOLOGY OF SATANIC CULT INVOLVEMENT: AN ...

89. Well, I wanted to get out. I was scared
90. I just wanted to live a normal life, not
having nightmares, not pumping my veins
full ofdrugs, being a normalPerson again.
It changed a lot.
91. I knew I had to get out because 1 had a
very bad experience. {After the interviewer
had switched the tape recorder off at the
end of the interview, the subject said she
would tell me about the experience. She
had fallen pregnant in the coven and an
abortion had been ritually induced, and the
foetus cannibalised. }
92 {She reported having been so
traumatised by this event that now, as a
student nurse, she cannot bear to watch
pregnancy termination. }
93 I wanted to get out, and went to a
minister. At that stage I was seen as a
problem child I said, "Please help me get
out, ifI don't get outI 'll be killed". He
said, "We know you're a problem child,
and that you're just seeking attention". I
went from minister to minister, and I
thought, "I can't get out".
89. S was afraid and wished to leave the
coven.
90. S wanted to lead a normal life, free of
nightmares and drug abuse.
91. The traumatic event that forced S to
leave Satanism was the induced abortion
and cannibalisation ofher foetus.
92. S's work as a student nurse 1S
negatively affected by her consequent
inability to witness medical pregnancy
termination.
93. S, fearing for her life, was blocked in
her attempts to leave the coven by
disbelieving clergy who labelled her claims
as attention-seeking fabrications.
94. Then I got hold of P. He was the first 94. S eventually found a religious minister
person who believed me.
who believed her.
95. In Satanism you're really striving the 95. For S, Satanism involved the persistent
whole time, to reach something, and then striving for accomplishments which, when
you have it for a few days and you think, attained, would no longer be adequate in
"This is not good enough", and you're her own eyes.
striving again.
96. It's like witches in different covens.
They fight constantly, and if there's
someone stronger than you, thenfight.
97. That's why there is the heavy drinking 97. S understands her indiscriminate drug
and druf{s. Last year I was workinf{ at a abuse to have been an attempt to evade the
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