THE PSYCHOLOGY OF SATANIC CULT INVOLVEMENT: AN ...

83. They made me do things, like pick
fights with people. You're the host, they
are using you. It's not really you doing
those things. You're like the puppet on a
string, and the demons are the PUPPet
master.
84. Sometimes you do things that you
barely remember, because when you're
possessed your brain kind of like switches
off.
85. But, you know, later I wanted them out.
I couldn't take it. That's when I tried to
commit suicide. I was sick ofeverything, of
being controlled by all the demons. And so
I slashed my wrists. I very nearly died,
'cause I lost three-quarters of my blood,
andI was just standing there, watching the
blood squirt out.
86. I really wanted to be free of the
demons, and so at the beginning of this
year, when I got saved, about two weeks
after that, the demons were taken out of
me. I was sitting in B 's living room, and L
was praying for me, and then the demons
started manifesting. I started growling,
screaming, and swearing, and I remember
the room becoming ice-cold I was
shiveringfrom cold
87. L startedprayingfaster, and going into
tongues, getting into the spirits, and when
he commanded the spirits to leave I
remember feeling a great force going out
of my body. Almost like when you get
blown away on a windy day.
83. S felt himselfto be a host who was used
and controlled by his demonic occupants,
and was consequently not responsible for
his destructive behaviour.
84. While possessed, S's cognitive
functioning would be impaired, and he
could thus not clearly recall his demonically
induced behaviour.
85. S could not rid himself of the
controlling demons and, m a state of
desperation, attempted suicide in order to
free himself ofdemonic influence.
86. When S underwent a Christian exorcism
he began growling, screaming, swearing,
and shivering from cold.
87. When the spirits were commanded to
leave S felt a great force exit his body.
88. I sighedfrom exhaustion. I was feeling 88. S felt completely exhausted after the
like totally wasted, you know.
exorcism ritual.
89. After that I felt free, totallyfree. It was 89. S took delight in the experience of
a wonderfulfeeling.
being free from internal demonic presence.
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