DEVELOPMENTAL CRISIS IN EARLY ADULTHOOD: A ...
DEVELOPMENTAL CRISIS IN EARLY ADULTHOOD: A ...
DEVELOPMENTAL CRISIS IN EARLY ADULTHOOD: A ...
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more position, more power, I was being able to influence what was going on and to<br />
me that is how I had been programmed.” (Interview 2, p.1)<br />
A persona is generally formed due to live up to the expectations of others, to<br />
adopt the goals and values that others suggest or demand of you, rather than develop<br />
those in line with one’s own inclinations and passions. Guy several times suggests<br />
that before the crisis, he was motivated in such a way:<br />
“My life before the crisis was about conforming to the rules and what was expected<br />
of me by my wife, children, parents, work colleagues etc. There was little space<br />
for me to be who I truly was.” (Emails, p.1)<br />
“Prior to the crisis, my first actions were always about pleasing others. As a<br />
consequence, I would find myself visiting with so-called friends on a Saturday<br />
night not wanting to be there but pleasing my wife. I would spend the afternoon at<br />
my parents and being bored out of my mind because it was expected. I didn't<br />
do things to please myself.” (Emails, p.1)<br />
Guy describes this experience of his self being commandeered by the demands<br />
of others, using the graphic metaphor of his self being “hijacked” (Interview 2, p.10).<br />
When I asked Guy what he meant by feeling like his self had been hijacked, he replied<br />
that it came from feeling like he his identity had been hijacked by the demands of<br />
others, by conforming to the expectations of wife, parents and work colleagues, which<br />
meant that “there was little space for me to be who I truly was.” (Emails, p.1)<br />
Guy also cites elements of his background that may have influenced his<br />
developing self. His parents had always inculcated in him the importance of material<br />
success and hard work, and he had introjected these as values too. He suggests that<br />
his father’s intensive work-focused lifestyle may have been a role model for his own:<br />
“I thought it was natural to feel exhausted when you come home from work. My<br />
father used to do that, so what other role model did I need to have? You go out to<br />
work, you bring in the money, you fall asleep, your wife gets pissed off with you<br />
and argues with you, yeah, I had seen it played out beforehand, so why should I<br />
think there is anything wrong with that?” (Interview 2, p.13)<br />
Guy’s persona, borne of the need to adapt to his professional role and the<br />
various social pressures he was experiencing, had become all-consuming. There is<br />
evidence that Guy came to over-identify with his work role to the point where the job<br />
was no longer something he had, but something he was:<br />
“Who was I? I was this network director for X Bank.” (Interview 1, p.2)<br />
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