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Appendix D<br />
Memos<br />
Memos are an important part of the method used in this study. This appendix lists all<br />
the memos in chronological order, written over a two year period. They record<br />
insights, thoughts, analysis schemes, pattern codes or typologies which at the time<br />
seemed of interest. These memos were recorded directly into a dedicated memo<br />
folder on the computer, and provide a record of evolving analysis and interpretation.<br />
They are shown exactly as they were written, with the date that they were written.<br />
Within-Case Study 1 Memos<br />
Camilla memos<br />
1/2/05<br />
Camilla sets the scene for her crisis by painting a picture of her early twenties as one of freedom,<br />
partying, drinking and having a great time. She says that in those days she was ‘out of control’,<br />
although in a very different sense to the way in which ‘out of control’ has been such a feature in the<br />
crisis narratives. By having too much freedom, and just doing ‘what she wanted’ she was out of<br />
control. So by having too much freedom, too much detachment from the society in which one is<br />
embedded, one can also experience a kind of tyranny in the individualistic solipsism which is such a<br />
feature in modern life. We are very good on rights but not on responsibility. So it would be fair to say<br />
that crisis is not just about liberation from constraint, it is about finding a balance between one’s own<br />
desires and passions and one’s responsibilities to others and to the society in which one is nurtured.<br />
Mill says later in his book (find quote, that despite our responsibility not to blindly conform, we also<br />
have a responsibility to the social structure into which we fit. A balance between opposites, as is so<br />
often the case, must be found.<br />
1/2/05<br />
There are moral implications in all the crises so far – other people are involved, get hurt, get left, or get<br />
used, and this inevitably causes guilt. In fact ‘morality and guilt’ would be a good section in the writeup.<br />
Gosh, this is really exciting. This is a genuinely fascinating and insightful project, I am learning<br />
about human beings! Real human beings!<br />
1/2/05<br />
The trap for Camilla, the pressure situation was being in a controlling affair relationship with her boss<br />
and being at work with people isolating her, whispering about her, not being able to tell anyone, his<br />
wife working there. That is quite a little pressure cooker. The pressure is released when she leaves the<br />
job and leaves him. Although she does come back to him considerably later.<br />
1/2/05<br />
on page 9, Camilla concludes that having consideration for others via considering as widely as possible<br />
the consequences of your actions, is part and parcel of her development. There seems in her mature<br />
self to be a balance of autonomy and integration with the world around her. Thus we connect with the<br />
issue mentioned above of a balance between separateness and connectedness.<br />
Society as a game of control. You try and control it for your ends, it tries to control you for its ends.<br />
Meet in the middle, be subverted completely or get the hell out. The former is the healthy option. It’s<br />
the part/whole tension.<br />
3/2/05<br />
Camilla before the crisis was free in that she could do what she wanted to do, but she was directionless,<br />
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