DEVELOPMENTAL CRISIS IN EARLY ADULTHOOD: A ...
DEVELOPMENTAL CRISIS IN EARLY ADULTHOOD: A ...
DEVELOPMENTAL CRISIS IN EARLY ADULTHOOD: A ...
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a cellar, it’s really suffocating…So it was like everything was coming in, but there is<br />
this bit of you that wants to explode. So there is pressure out too.” (p.7)<br />
Lilly was so depressed by this situation that she attempts to commit suicide. She is<br />
found by her flatmate passed out the floor, having consumed a bottle of painkillers,<br />
and is taken to hospital, where she has her stomach pumped out. When she recovers,<br />
she resigns from her job and moves to London to be with her friends. She moves<br />
back in with her mother.<br />
Claire resents and dislikes her job as a management consultant, which she<br />
feels duty-bound to stay in for her children. Then after a whirlwind romance she<br />
marries, and she is finally able to leave her job to look after house and children. She<br />
stated that the reason for getting married was that she felt it was the last opportunity<br />
she would get to be at home with her kids. She put aside her intellectual aspirations<br />
of becoming an academic for the “chocolate box” aspiration of domestic motherhood.<br />
She indeed did find the time she spent with her children fulfilling, once in the new<br />
marriage, yet in her vicarious aspirations for her children, she was still extrinsically<br />
motivated. Despite the fulfilment of spending time with her children, she still feels<br />
like a “frustrated academic” (p.18), and feels as if she is living for her children, more<br />
than for herself. Then her husband becomes violent, jealous and aggressive and after<br />
one particularly brutal episode she leaves him, leading to another separation and a<br />
profound sense of loss, grief, self-doubt and pain.<br />
8.9 Dissolution of the Dysfunctional Persona and the Emerging Feminine Self<br />
After leaving the pre-crisis job and/or relationship, rather than replace the<br />
dysfunctional persona with another, all six individuals make an attempt to find an<br />
identity and a role which reflects their sense of private self (i.e. their interests, dreams<br />
and passions) and so avoid constructing another false front. This rebalanced self is in<br />
all cases more open to feminine values and virtue than their pre-crisis self. There are<br />
reports of opening to a more emotional, caring, sensitive, nurturing and relational, as<br />
the dysfunctional and masculinised persona that defined their pre-crisis life structures<br />
is shed.<br />
Victoria described how she wanted to be a man when she was in Italy, because<br />
this meant responsibility and power, and this led to an occasional masculine persona.<br />
She described the change over crisis from a dissonant persona to a more harmonious<br />
relation of self and behaviour, and links this to emerging femininity:<br />
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