DEVELOPMENTAL CRISIS IN EARLY ADULTHOOD: A ...
DEVELOPMENTAL CRISIS IN EARLY ADULTHOOD: A ...
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Gemma<br />
Interview 10<br />
Case Summary<br />
Gemma’s crisis episode is a three year long process to find a sense of authenticity and partial<br />
autonomy away from a life under the oppressive influence of controlling parents and an illsuited<br />
conventional husband, during her 20s. Having missed out on an adolescence in which<br />
she could forge some autonomy, her life had developed according to a mould that was set for<br />
her by others, particularly her parents, and so she was passive, malleable and accepting, and<br />
hid her true fantasies and hopes. The parents, in control of their daughter, set her life<br />
agenda, which Gemma unquestioningly followed. She says ‘my every action was controlled<br />
by them.’ Her parents are characterised as oppressive and narrow minded in the narrative –<br />
bigoted, controlling, neurotic, unhappy. The narrative has a Cinderella feel to it.<br />
She has one baby and gets terrible post-natal depression, but the desire for change or<br />
breaking free remains latent, and so while this is a period of unhappiness, it is not defined as<br />
crisis. The crisis arrives after the second baby, and she starts to make changes – to build a<br />
social life and go to assertiveness classes, and starts to see a counsellor. The counsellor<br />
gives her permission to feel what she feels and be what she is. Gemma says to the<br />
counsellor through tears ‘I don’t even know who I am’, suggesting an empty self – an identity<br />
that has been so manipulated from without that she does not know her real character. This<br />
is the moment when she releases her inner feelings and thoughts, and in the narrative a<br />
sense is given of a pressure that had been building up for many years of hidden feelings,<br />
fantasies and thoughts, that finally gets released. It was a catalyst for learning how to<br />
explore identity and self to develop a connection with her feelings. She learns to trust her<br />
feelings, rather than ‘run away from them’. This, she says, was the start of her liberation.<br />
The process shows a fluid development of self – from labelling self as ‘selfish and horrible’ to<br />
having a stronger self-esteem and opening to her weaknesses rather than shutting them out.<br />
The development in self-concept suggests a metamorphosis in self-schematic content – a<br />
stark shift in personhood, from one person to another person, separated by the period of<br />
cognitive re-organisation during the crisis. Bruner talks of how in order to maintain<br />
coherence within the self-concept, change in the self often happens in a landslide manner,<br />
from one equilibrium state to another. Self-esteem is strengthened by effective interaction<br />
with others and effective career progression.<br />
The crisis shows a curious parallel manifestation of negative emotions and positive ones,<br />
pretty well simultaneously. Guilt is a significant phenomenon, in feeling that she has<br />
transgressed a moral imperative. One of the biggest stressors, interestingly, is not the<br />
demands or exceeding ‘coping mechanisms’, it is her parents not being able to tell anybody<br />
that she and Tony were divorcing. When the divorce does happen there is the co-occurrence<br />
of relief and guilt. Gemma says that she doesn’t believe her transition would have been<br />
possible without negative emotion, stress and a crisis. The crisis was of ‘paramount<br />
importance’ to her development as a person. She feels that after there is a parallel sense of<br />
both strength and vulnerability. And after exploring her self, then she finds her attention<br />
drawn to finding meaning in life beyond the self – to develop a spiritual understanding. She<br />
wanted to find out why life can feel like a ‘living curse’. Effects of the crisis involved a move<br />
from stasis and acceptance to experimentation, trial and error, trying out subpersonalities,<br />
opening to feelings and so on, she learns about the world and herself.<br />
Bruner says that all narrative is portrayed in a dual landscape – inner world and outer world.<br />
In Gemma’s narrative the inner world of desire, thought, fantasy, urge, emotion starts hidden<br />
and radically detached from a cold, boring, unemotive world of imposed marriage and<br />
stringent parental control – the inner world is ‘hidden’, ‘concealed’, while the outer person is<br />
passive and malleable, for there is no outward expression of personally held intentions and<br />
goals, and therefore little opportunity for personal agency or volitionally chosen direction.<br />
The paradox is that this juxtaposition of internal and external leads Gemma to feel ‘isolated’<br />
despite being outwardly welded carefully and conventionally into society, for she thinks she is<br />
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