THE BOOK OF POEMS IN TWENTIETH-CENTURY ... - TopReferat
THE BOOK OF POEMS IN TWENTIETH-CENTURY ... - TopReferat
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tenth, "Уроки Аббатиссы," the twentieth, "Еще Урок Аббатиссы," and the forty-third,<br />
"Огненный Урок." 250<br />
In "Уроки Аббатиссы," the abbess sets out three tasks for Lavinia. She first asks<br />
her to draw a map of the heavens, but Lavinia has the Angel-Wolf do it for her, afraid to<br />
test herself and face her own ignorance. The second task requires Lavinia to look at<br />
herself from within as upon one crucified. Lavinia again fails, immediately imagining<br />
stigmata, instead of experiencing true pain or love. In her aspiration to achieve and prove<br />
her enlightenment, she in fact falls victim to this same desire for enlightenment, a typical<br />
Buddhist trap. The Abbess is only satisfied with Lavinia's performance in the third task<br />
in which she is told to travel in her mind to the Last Supper in Jerusalem. When asked if<br />
she saw the Savior, Lavinia finally replies truthfully, expressing her inability to see Him:<br />
«Его я не видала.<br />
Нет, врать не буду. Стоило<br />
Глаза поднять—их будто солнцем выжигало,<br />
Шар золотой калил. Как ни старалась—<br />
Его не видела, почти слепой осталась».<br />
"I did not see him.<br />
No, I will not lie. I only needed to<br />
Raise my eyes—it was as if they were scorched by the sun,<br />
The golden sphere roasted them. No matter how much I tried—<br />
I did not see Him, I was left almost blind."<br />
It is still early in Lavinia's journey toward Christ. She is still finding her way, learning<br />
how to approach Him; she is just beginning to understand that this journey requires the<br />
250 While this is the last of the Abbess's formal lessons, Lavinia receives instruction later in the book as<br />
well. Having swallowed a needle in her soup, she rushes to a medical elder in the sixtieth poem,<br />
"Старица." As treatment, the nun gives her both honey and advice: "[…] В обрезанное сердце льется<br />
Жизнь,/Любовь и дух, и царствие, и сила,/А что-то колет—плюнь и веселись". ("[…] Into the<br />
circumcised heart pours Life,/Love and spirit, and kingdom, and strength,/But if something pricks—spit<br />
and rejoice.")<br />
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