E-Book of Articles - World Federation of Music Therapy

Schulberg, Cecilia: Many Vioces In One ...
#3 - [“Remembrances”] I_m loaded with stuff to give and I don_t want to
end up lonely and bitter, my partner can_t accept it, doesn_t need as much
- makes me feel good, that heart connection - feel have a lot to give (feel
that heart connection) - my friend sees my just surviving, not like I used to
be, think I was more under my mother_s guidance, what the world thought
was truly amazing - when I think more of who I am, not my mother, I_m not
who she is - (how is that for you?) I_m nurturing with people, I like that,
but it_s not very satisfying, I want to go deep, I expect a lot - sometimes
I_m just content to just be and she said that_s not who you were - maybe
it_s just change, in a big search for peace, don_t want conflict any more,
don_t have to prove anything any more -
#4 - [“Schindler’s Workforce”] I achieved a lot - I don_t just want a filler -
(what do you want?) think I_m looking for a certain intimacy I don_t have
with my partner - had that with my first partner (where feeling that?) in
my pelvic area - it’s feeling of wanting to just hold someone close in that
full body position, and have them join in - not been paying attention to the
music, been in my head - this music makes me want to run out in nature,
not be in my head - (can you do that?) yeah, the free part of me likes to do
that, not follow rules - my partner doesn_t let me do that, I_m a free
spirit, that_s my gift, I_m not bizarre, I_m fun (let yourself experience that
with the music) [moves arms] I like to run among the flowers - makes my
soul feel better, I like to be child-like, that’s a big part of myself, I like to
make fun of the rules - (feeling that now?) yeah - I’m feeling the
adventurous part of myself, the part that likes to be free, to explore, to
really experience the world with wonder, with open eyes, what I really
want to get, the music_s uplifting me (let the music lift you up) - makes me
want to drive into different villages and ask questions and grasp it (grasp
it) [makes grasping motions with hands/arms] it_s very awakening - I feel
my soul, my heart opening up (feel them opening up) - I like the little stuff,
that I can be curious about - [pause] it_s nice to feel that good feeling
inside (feel that good feeling) - I just really want to be happy a lot, I know
that I_m lucky, it’s a shame to not be in that state - [pause] some of the
music reminds me of the Jewish joke that’s the twist, the joke is onus, we
can be whatever G-d wants us to be, and I know that, certainly my child
knows that (your child knows that) - in that child state I feel tremendous
amount of energy and I want that back - obviously it_s up to me.
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