Red_Roses_and_Black_Dahlias_-_Macy_T

She stared at me for so long, eyes wavering and lips trembling. It’s like
she wanted to tell me something but wouldn’t dare.
Then her gaze fell to my lips and her head moved up, just the slightest bit.
I tensed, knowing what she meant to do, her mouth was only a breath away
from mine.
It took all I had to put my hands on her shoulders and pushed her away as
softly as I could. I heard her breath catch in her throat. As soft as my
movements were, I knew they still hurt her feelings. My own heart screamed
at me for putting distance between us, but I couldn’t hear it over my brain
maintaining this was best for both of us. And Valentina.
“I- I’m sorry.” She took another step back, looking down at her bare feet,
while pursing her lips.
“It’s okay, I— you know we can’t do that.” I wanted nothing more than to
take her in my arms.
“I don’t know what came over me, I didn’t mean to— I know you don’t
want me like that.”
I could’ve denied it, reassured her and told her that she represented
everything I ever desired and more, but where would that get us? More
frustrated because we both wanted each other but couldn’t do anything about
it? Giving up on resisting and crossing a line once again?
We couldn’t have that.
So I said nothing, and let her believe that I wasn’t into her even though I
wanted her so much it burned.
She gulped at my silence, nodding to herself and ready to turn around and
get back to bed. For some reason, I wasn’t ready to part ways yet so I blurted
the first thing I could think of.