Red_Roses_and_Black_Dahlias_-_Macy_T

The realization hit me full force and I really didn’t want it to be true at
first. How fucking humiliating was that? I had spent the biggest part of my
adult life avoiding being at anyone’s mercy, yet here I was, willing to be
under Maddox’s?
It didn't make sense.
Seeing my reaction and sensing my hesitation, the cop I had found myself
living with narrowed his eyes. He took another step towards me, putting us
chest to chest and his hand around my neck squeezed delicately.
“That’s what you want, isn’t it?” He narrowed his eyes and I lowered
mine in shame.
I couldn’t tell him. I knew he wouldn’t judge me for wanting to explore
my sexuality, if anything, he seemed to revel in that, but still. My insecurities
were rooted too deep in me to simply disappear after a month of amazing
sex.
At my lack of response, Maddox simply stated, “You’re aching for
another spanking.”
I was mortified but at the same time I wanted it so much my body was
actually starting to shake slightly. I wanted Maddox to just sweep me off my
feet and carry me to his bedroom or hell, just sit down on the couch and take
me over his knee.
Anything to make the voices in my head stop being so fucking loud.
“I can’t say no to you.” Maddox placed a piece of my hair away from my
face and behind my ear and I squeezed my thighs in anticipation. “But before
I give you what you want, kneel and open that pretty little mouth of yours.”
I could feel my eyes widening, my heart beating faster and faster. It was
crazy how much I craved this proximity to him, how much I wanted to please
him when an hour before I was so mad I could have strangled him.