A Record of Meetings held by P.D. Ouspensky - HolyBooks.com

Tuesday. June 28th 1938. (Warwick Gardens.)[Written questions.]MISS S. Just recently I have been able to observe myself a good manytimes during the day. However, for the last four or five days I havefound it increasingly difficult and could think of no reason except thatI have been rather tired physically. Can delicate people put as muchenergy into work as strong ones?MR. O. It is always going up and down, you know. Better days, worsedays.MISS S. In connection with this, I find that when I get over-tiredphysically, which it is difficult for me to avoid, this often results at thesame time in negative emotion, in the form of depression generally,which I do not find it easy to get rid of. I cannot understand why theemotions should have anything to do with a physical state, and wouldlike to know if this is wrong work of centres and also how I can getrid of it.MR. O. It may be wrong work of centres and also many other things. Itis a fact that when one is really ill one is more mechanical than usual.Then, of course, one can imagine one is ill when one is not ill at all.Most of our illness is imaginary, at any rate in its effects.MISS S. Did you say we could distinguish between 'I's and groups of'I's?MR. O. Yes, sometimes we can, only you must find examples foryourself and tell me, if you want me to say more.MISS T . Mr. O. last week mentioned that complicated physical workwill make us more aware of ourselves. How are we able to undertakethis, as it seems very necessary for work?MR. O. I will speak about it later.MISS T . As the week advances I find myself more and more asleep;lectures once a week do not seem sufficient. Is there anything I can doto keep awake?MR. O. Quite right, but you must begin somewhere. Too much at once