A Record of Meetings held by P.D. Ouspensky - HolyBooks.com

that interests one more than anything else. You cannot rememberyourself in regard to everything in your life.MR. O. Quite right. You have to remember. [Little laugh]MRS. T. I find it very difficult to see myself. I have tried to be aware ofwhat I am doing. Is that a beginning?M R . O Well, begin in that way.DR. R. When you say we must have more material, we don't seem toconnect at all what we want with those words you gave us about thenecessity for memory.MR. O. Words mean nothing at all. We can replace one kind of wordswith another, and so on. You must find what you want and not forgetit.MRS. C. I don't want to live in a state where everything goes on byitself.MR. O. Not same thing.MR. J. I think if I am asked to reduce what I want to the simplestform, it is I want something in myself which is reliable, to which I canrelate everything. . . .MR. O. Everybody can formulate it in the same—in similar—words.Make use of that; but necessary to explain it more, to give morematerial.MISS Q Would it help if people tried to find out what it is they regretforgetting more than anything else?MR. O. Yes, yes. Well, ask everything; what you want answered, howyou formulate your question?MRS. C. Is it necessary to see very definitely what happens withinoneself?MR. O. Chiefly nothing.MRS. C. It seems to me I do see certain habits; when they happen againthey wake me up.MISS Q I don't see how that is possible.MRS. C. I have a habit of counting up useful things I have done Littlehabits.MR O. Or something too big.MRS. R. Why do you make it harder for us to get help from you nowthan you used to in the old days?MR O. Now you accuse me of being hard. I don't know how I canmake it hard. We can try to make it more hard.