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A Record of Meetings held by P.D. Ouspensky - HolyBooks.com

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they will say better what they want. I must understand; if you want toask me about anything, I must understand you.MR. C. I find that my efforts to change seem to be directed towardsremoving parts <strong>of</strong> my personality which <strong>com</strong>plicate and distort. I feelif I could see my personality as it is and see it with disgust, then Imight be able to change something fundamental. But I do not knowhow to do that. I cannot get beyond that.MR. O. Well, may be quite right.MRS. M. I have no will power at all. I cannot tell what I want.MR O. Necessary to create some kind <strong>of</strong> will.MR. N. Sometimes I feel my actions are violating the intended pattern<strong>of</strong> things, but I cannot help myself. How can actions be made to obeysuch a relation?MR. O. I don't know. There is no such simple method.MR. A . Sometimes I understand things logically, and other times, veryrarely, I understand them more deeply.MR. O. How do you know that it is more deeply?MR. A . I feel more strongly at the time.MR. O. It doesn't prove anything.MR. R Is our mistake in always running away from reality into illusion?MR. O I don't know. Probably, yes.MR. R. I mean, for instance, if I am bereaved, instead <strong>of</strong> facing thesorrow I run away to some illusion, some -ism, something that will causeme to believe for the time being in the survival <strong>of</strong> the one I have lost.MR O I don't know.MR. R. Death seems reality, whereas the thing I try to believe I reallydo not know and do not understand.MR O. Well, we never understand anything. [? Might be better, then,that way.]MRS. P. I want to understand the real meaning <strong>of</strong> Christ's teaching. Isit possible that in getting to know myself better. . . .MR. O. No, it is quite impossible. Don't think about it. Nobody everunderstood, and nobody will understand.MRS. E. I want to drop, like dead leaves <strong>of</strong>f a tree, those parts <strong>of</strong> mewhich can never exist, so that they may no longer distort that personin me which wants to exist.IMR. O. [Either] Probably it will happen later. [Or] Probably it willhappen like that.

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