Dissertation - World Federation of Music Therapy

still, it was very immobile, maybe it was only the head I saw? I was fascinated by this
big, bad beak, that really can be used to kill. The following images I remember as
much more dynamic. In the sequence with the pixy the eagle flew away with the
pixy, and I was the pixy. It made me realize some qualities of loneliness or solitude. I
also remember Ellen saying the eagle has a breath of view. Flying high in the sky with
a great outlook – that’s actually very very good. It was also fine that the eagle carried
the pixy away. It dropped me in the end [“I resign [accept] myself. Over and out”,
quote from transcript] Yes. The pixy represented something in me which has come to
an end, “the poor chap”.
[Let’s make an interpretation. What does it mean that the eagle carries the pixy
away?] I don’t quite remember how I experienced the pixy, apart from the pixy being
me, but it was a great release, I remember the feeling of liberation by acknowledging
that there are things in this world I have to resign myself with. It could easily be my
cancer. There are things in the world I can’t fight, and I might as well accept it. Roger
– over – and out! Even if I have power and can do a lot of things… there is plenty of
things I cannot change. And it is waste of energy to try. [It takes a breath of view?] It
takes a breath of view to realize that! It was also a physical release. I used the phrase
‘being set free’ several times. It is like being presented with a new perspective on life.
[You described you feeling with a novel concept: a “Balance of nothing”?] (Smiles)
Lovely concept. New perspectives, hmm. This really shows what I mean: Something
is evoked, and you need a little time to explore and identify it and ask yourself
whether you can accept it. Then comes an interaction, something starts to happen. It
may end with an identification – ‘This is me’. And this is sort of an integration. –
When I had integrated the image of the eagle a further development occurred. I had
images of flying, where the playful element of the eagle became the focus. It would
circle in the air being held by the winds, it was an exploration of an element new to
me. I can still recall the feeling. Like when a child as fascinated by ‘What happens to
my finger, if I do so and so..’. In that session solitude was self-imposed. There was
challenge, and there was curiosity, there was play and there was a carrying capacity.
Yes I could rely on the winds of the air.
[All these metaphors are about quality of life, aren’t they?] Absolutely. It is
impossible to know whether they were created through the music therapy. And It is
not very important either. [But you can activate them trough music therapy?] Yes, you
can!
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