Dissertation - World Federation of Music Therapy

guess it has been working in the subconscious instead, but some times I felt a little
guilty….
[Originally we planned the sessions to be weekly…] I think fortnightly sessions were
better. Including transport every session took three or four hours for me. And I think it
takes some time for the experience to become established in your mind. The images
may emerge at the strangest times. The pixy was the first one that amused me. And
more may images may rise to the surface. Also the last image: reaching out for the
stars and pick them down. That was quite amazing. I recognize something from my
dreams. They also come like what I call ‘slides’ now and then. And sometimes I
recognize an ‘old dream’. I don’t know where they come from and it really makes me
wonder.
[I see certain patterns in your imagery. Like fairy tale patterns – Thumbelina for
instance, even if the name is not mentioned. Did they emerge later on?] Not
consciously. I never thought it was weird or frightening. I found it exiting to lie there
and produce these images, and somehow they made sense. It is true that there was not
so much ‘every-day-life’ in the imagery. But having them was fine. No problem.
[Did any of the images surprise you – or made you exited?], in the last session, that
was very important. Several images during the process made in big impression, but in
very different ways. I was never frightened, felt touched maybe, but never sad or
afraid. I almost thought I wasn’t normal. (Smiles)
[Why do you think the images didn’t frigthen you?] I don’t know what the reason is…
It is something I see, but it don’t experience it like being in the middle of it. They are
images. If I was completely absorbed in them it might be too hard to handle. They are
images of where I am, on the other hand they are also seen from the outside. Although
some of it is seen from the inside! [Internal and external at the same time, yes. But not
a story you would tell in your outer life?] It is not like nightly dreams that can give
you a negative feeling all through the day. I have not carried negative feelings with
me from the music therapy. It has been positive feelings. Maybe I expected that you
would be loose your balance in the beginning and then find the balance again later.
But that was not how the process was. It has been very much up and down.
[I can see that your imagery is closely connected to the music. What do you think
about the music now?] I was not much aware of it while I lay down. When I listen to
the music on cd I can easily recognize it. But I only remember once or twice where I
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