Dissertation - World Federation of Music Therapy

had a conscious experience of following the music. I think I am quite good at catching
moods, so the moods in the music reach me very precisely, I guess. (...)
[The pixy – do you consider it a self-image?] I laughed almost all the way home. Yes,
I recognized this rather confused person, running around, not really knowing where it
was going.
[The lake] Water has always been very important for me. Spontaneously I would have
thought it was the sea, however it was a lake that emerged. It had some sort of
demarcation, but also possibilities of entry… what I experienced was quite deep in
the lake of the hole. There was along way up. [First time the lake emerges it is
polluted, and then it becomes cleaner and cleaner. Some sort of transformation goes
on.] It came rather… it was in the beginning, wasn’t it. The earth colours on the
borders of the lake… but also a lot of green. These are probably the colours that
belong to the lake. [Does it still have meaning for you?] Yes, I think so.
[Then there are some animals, a snake and a snail?] The snail was in the end.
Everything was a little difficult. But it had also meaning – it was very heavy stuff for
me, difficult to make a choice and find a way. Vulnerable. [But the snail could choose
to move forwards in the verge?] Yes, that was where there was comfort and rest, and
then there was the long road, and the road I couldn’t see – like it was not an option
right now in some way. So it was about needing rest and quiet, and wanting to lie in
the verge and feel the sun, but it didn’t really lead anywhere. Whereas the long road
led somewhere, and there was a light in the horizon, it was just so damn far away
(both smile). What was funny was that I went from the session feeling that I, with a
clear confidence, could say that I was too exhausted. I don’t want to go to school
anymore, I just want peace and quiet. I wasn’t quite sure whether it was because I
didn’t dare, or whether it was because I felt better – but after all I chose the long road.
There is still a long way to go but light is coming nearer. [So the snail and its dilemma
is a very precise image of a dilemma in your life?] Yes, very much, at that time. I
never really found out what the last road was about.
[Is there a connection between the snail and the snake?] To me it was a friendly snake
that could help me. But it didn’t help me all the way up, I had to manage the last bit
myself.
[There was also a castle with some rooms to be discovered.] I have always been
fascinated by castles and fortresses. So I guess the images came from the fascination.
Houses and rooms also emerge in my dreams, and it can be quite difficult to get out of
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