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cause I’m a former overt out lesbian and still am quite queer<br />
in the global, queer, sexual sense, because I’m into S/M and<br />
dom inance and submission, because I’m into watching and<br />
being watched, talking and being talked to and finding out<br />
all the little byways of sex that women aren’t supposed to<br />
know about, much less practice and see if they can get good<br />
at—I’m just as divergent as those guys are. They’re coming<br />
in to be with me and trust me with their sex, and their desire<br />
reaffirms me in mine. I doubt they know that they’re doing<br />
that for me, but I know, and I know that I’m doing it for them.<br />
And every once in a while a man will be very clear, like the<br />
dominance guy who said, after he got off and stopped being<br />
nasty to me and calling me a dirty cunt, “It’s so good that you<br />
people are here doing this.” Just the kind of voice he would<br />
tell the waiter to please convey his com pliments to the chef,<br />
you know? Same thing, same thing. “Please let every body<br />
doing this know that we appreciate you for being here and<br />
giving us something that we can’t get other places.” I know<br />
plenty of people who have well-rounded sexual relationships<br />
who started out by understanding that they could get that by<br />
visiting peep shows, by seeing prostitutes and getting it that<br />
somebody would want to fuck them or talk to them or see<br />
them or let them watch.<br />
Yeah, there’s a lot of healing. I am very clear<br />
that I am like one of the priestesses of the<br />
Goddess back in the temples of the Middle<br />
East, way before Yahweh showed up and took<br />
over, whose spiritual gift was to be there for any man who<br />
walked in to see the face of the Goddess. We’re showing the<br />
face of the Goddess in a culture that doesn’t believe in the<br />
Goddess anymore.<br />
from all over the world. Some are travelers and tourists, and<br />
some live right in the neighborhood. Some of them come from<br />
far away to have their sexual fantasy. Some are quite young,<br />
probably too young to be there. They are men old enough to<br />
be grandpas, and you hope they’re not going to fall over while<br />
they’re jackin’ off. And every age in between. Most are in<br />
their forties, I would guess. They are packs of boys, Latinos,<br />
Asian Pacific, black or white, or combina tions thereof; out on<br />
the prowl, checking it out, having a little testos terone party<br />
amongst themselves. Those are the most likely to misbe have<br />
in the hallway and suddenly turn sweet and shy in the booth.<br />
That’s a little piece of information I never expected to get<br />
about the way young men behave.<br />
They are from all economic classes. A lot more upstanding<br />
citizens than I ever thought. I had some prejudices about,<br />
“Who would go to those sleazy places anyway?” Well, a little<br />
bit of everybody does. The only people that we don’t have a<br />
good representational sample of are females. I’d love to have<br />
more of them visit me. It’s a special case when a woman<br />
walks in, it’s like, “Oh, my God, it’s a woman and she’s here<br />
to watch!” Sometimes her hus band or boyfriend is hauling<br />
her in, and she’s kind of trying to hide her eyes behind her<br />
hands and go, “Oh, not this, honey,” and some times she is<br />
I’ve seen guys hump the window,<br />
hump the wall.<br />
unabashedly as much a pussy hound as anybody else there.<br />
I want to see as many different kinds of women as men feel<br />
free to explore sexual entertainment. It’s cultural—it’s just<br />
not okay yet.<br />
Describe your performance at its best and worst. ~ At<br />
my best I give the customer total permission to be who he<br />
or she is and want what he or she wants. I consent to being<br />
a fantasy object in those desires, whatever they are. At my<br />
best I become just as erotically involved with the customer as<br />
he is with me. So that we really are having sex together. That<br />
often results in orgasms for me and almost always results in<br />
orgasms for him, although that’s not all there is to it. Orgasm<br />
is just reminding us that, yeah, we’re still con nected to our<br />
bodies. I communicate total acceptance, joy, and enthusiasm<br />
for sex. Which I think is a communication that none of us get<br />
enough of. A lot of us haven’t ever really gotten it all.<br />
At my worst, just like in partner-sex, I’m too tired to really<br />
connect. I’m not with the erotic flow any longer. At my worst<br />
it’s, “Where’s the sex? I can’t find it.”<br />
Describe the customers. ~ Well, most of them are men.<br />
That’s about all you can say that’s generalizable. They come<br />
from a great many walks of life. They are all races. They are<br />
Do customers leave their social roles and status behind<br />
when they come to see you? ~ Sometimes. In some respects,<br />
a hard cock is a great leveler.<br />
Describe the variety of sexual behavior customers express.<br />
~ Everything from open, lascivious looking, a looking<br />
that is so sexual that you just don’t see it any place else, except<br />
occasionally in the eyes of a lover. To pawing at the glass<br />
to pretend to touch your body. Making licking motions—“Oh,<br />
that pussy looks so good I could eat it.” Kissing through the<br />
glass. Guys jerk off and occasionally sploosh on the window. I<br />
try not to let them actually touch the glass with their mouths,<br />
but sometimes they do it. I explain that it’s not safe. I’ve seen<br />
guys hump the window, hump the wall.<br />
Lots of taking penis in hand and rubbing, stroking, petting,<br />
teasing, jerking. I don’t know if I’ve seen every form of<br />
masturbation, but I’ve seen lots and lots and lots, and it’s<br />
a ceaseless delight to see how different guys do it. There’s<br />
some whole-body self-sexuality, too. Some guys will get<br />
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