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I was taking the San Francisco Sex Information training and<br />
got complete support from those people. They said, If you<br />
want to do it, do it. You’re not hurting anybody—go for it. It<br />
was the first time I had heard that from anyone. Everybody<br />
had been telling me for years, No, don’t go back. Don’t explore<br />
any kind of sexual issue that I was interested in, anything<br />
that was out of the main stream. And since I come from<br />
a family that’s very dysfunctional and sexually weird—I come<br />
from an incest family—it’s a big concern. It’s a major concern<br />
that I’m going to turn out crazy like Mom and Dad.<br />
So, anyhow, I’m onstage going through all this shit, making<br />
this major deci sion, and there are all these guys around me<br />
jacking off. I always wanted to watch my boyfriends do that.<br />
They always wanted to watch me masturbate, but they would<br />
never let me watch them. So, suddenly, I can watch all these<br />
differ ent guys, and it was really interesting. It was the first<br />
time I could just stare at a man doing that, stare at his body<br />
and his cock. I got very excited. There were definitely customers<br />
who really turned me on.<br />
It was exciting and scary, a major decision, but frankly, it was<br />
really easy.<br />
What criteria do you use in hiring women? ~ The first<br />
thing is, how attractive are they? Second, how comfortable<br />
are they onstage? Would they actually be happy<br />
working here? Do they have good rapport<br />
with the customers? Are they able to look at<br />
these guys? I look at whether they have high<br />
or low energy. They have to be pretty unattractive for me to<br />
not hire them. I think I’ve only told one woman that I couldn’t<br />
hire her, and one over the phone because her application was<br />
unintelligible. I am certainly not one of the prettiest women<br />
here, and I still have a hot show. Looks do count in the business,<br />
definitely, and I pay attention to that. I would certainly<br />
love to hire lots of pretty nineteen-year-old college girls. It<br />
would be real good for the show, but I don’t want people to<br />
just slide on their looks. It’s sexiness that counts.<br />
And I look for people who are intelligent. Women who I can<br />
talk to, women who think about things, who use their intelligence<br />
to question the world around them and do some exploring—that’s<br />
important. I don’t like bimbos, no matter how<br />
pretty they might be. I pre fer having dancers and artists, actresses.<br />
Sometimes women from the financial district really<br />
cut loose.<br />
What do the customers want you to do? ~ Consistently,<br />
most of them—not all of them—want me to show them my<br />
genitals. It’s spread open and turn over so they can see my<br />
ass and genitals. Those are the requests most dancers seem<br />
to get. Sometimes they’d rather see me play with my breasts<br />
or just see my face. Sometimes they come in real depressed<br />
and just want some pretend contact. They’ll put their hands<br />
up to the window and want me to put my hand up so we<br />
touch fingertips. Often I get requests from young guys to do<br />
some kind of insertion, which we don’t do here. “Stick your<br />
fingers in,” or, “Don’t you have a dildo?”<br />
The other night this little, short guy with a baseball cap and<br />
thick glasses, who looked like something out of a Gary Larson<br />
cartoon, said, “So, how much for the back room?” Some<br />
guys hold twenties or fifties or hundred-dollar bills up to the<br />
window. Most of the guys know that doesn’t happen here,<br />
but there are requests for sex. “How much for a blowjob?”<br />
“How much to fuck you?”<br />
They love to see me get wet; sometimes I’ll fake that. I’ll<br />
lick my fingers and touch my genitals. “Oh, she’s getting excited.”<br />
They never seem to catch on. They think, “I’ve still got<br />
it. I turned her on, this hardened woman.”<br />
In your experience are dancers more deprived, abused,<br />
and battered than other women? ~ No way. Not at all.<br />
Women always get harassed, shit on, pushed around, cheated,<br />
and gypped. Dancers are no exception, certainly, but we<br />
don’t get treated any worse. And a lot of dancers make so<br />
much more money than other women and have so much<br />
more fun. In a lot of ways it’s a real healthy job. Physically,<br />
There were definitely customers who<br />
really turned me on.<br />
it’s very healthy. It’s like you’re exercising and get ting paid for<br />
it. At the moment we don’t make that much money, but it’s<br />
still a good, high hourly wage, considering a lot of people in<br />
the financial district or the retail and restaurant business are<br />
making, five, six, seven bucks an hour. Here, it’s real easy to<br />
get ten. In a lot of ways we get treated better, but we have to<br />
deal with the sexual stigma.<br />
Since I was fifteen, stepping out the door, walking down the<br />
street, and being harassed by a group of men has been consistently<br />
a traumatic experience. I’m always loudly evaluated<br />
and aggressively pursued. That’s how women get treat ed in<br />
this culture. I am certainly no more likely to experience violence<br />
than any other woman. That can happen to anybody<br />
anytime within a marriage, a family, a workplace, just walking<br />
into a bar. It’s not women in the sex industry who get singled<br />
out for that kind of abuse—all women are. As far as sexual<br />
harassment on the job, clearly it’s no worse in the sex industry<br />
than anywhere else. Even though you’d think it would be,<br />
it’s not. One time the computer company I worked for hired<br />
a secretary who was an exotic dancer. She had her little dictation<br />
pad and would go in for a meeting with ten guys, and<br />
they would lock the door. When she got out, her dictation<br />
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