SEXIS WRONG

In our job there’s nothing that you have to do. You’re supposed
to entertain the men, but you are not there to cash in
on their whims. They think it’s Burger King. They expect you
to wait on them hand and foot. They’re class less. They’re just
something that you want to be removed. With the exception
of a handful of men who take the time to talk to you. They
respect you; they’re looking at you in admiration. They know
that you’re human and that you have intelligence, that you do
other things.
But, basically, the men there are wrong. They’re wrong,
they’re lost, they’re lonesome, but they don’t know how to
deal with it. They’re also afraid. I think there’s a great fear
that’s going on. A window goes up, “Hello! You think you’re
Mr. Tough Guy? Here’s five nude women; what are you going
to do now?” They freak out, and I think out of fear, nervousness
makes them act stupid. They say the wrong things; they
do the wrong things. Should I be macho? Should I be sensitive?
They don’t know, so they do everything wrong.
I’m very intimidating. I go out of my way to intimidate them,
which makes them slip even more [laughs] into the revulsion
level, so...they acquire a lot of training. But that’s what the
whole theater’s about, I guess—training. And I’m at a point
right now where I don’t even do that. They sicken me, and I
go somewhere else mentally until they leave.
Those are the male customers.
There are two kinds of female customers. The
women who have never been here before, who don’t know
what to expect, women who have taken showers and never
looked at themselves. They’re out for the night, either with
their boyfriends or other girls, and they don’t know how to
handle it, so they giggle. They come off very silly. Then there
are the women who totally know what to expect. They’re
wonderful. They’re full of admiration. They look at everyone in
a very respectful way, watching how they move, like they’re
watching a ballet. They’re very interested. They’ll say hello.
They’re obviously in touch with themselves. Women are definitely
cooler. There are no demands, no expectations.
There are lesbian and straight women. Straight women come
in with their partners. Some of the couples are wonderful.
The women are totally into their partners looking at these
other women, and they’re getting off on it. I can’t imagine
how it can be such an experience for them—they really enjoy
it. [Laughs.]
Do you encounter violent men here? ~ Those are the kind
of men that I attract, violent men. They’ll be loud, and I’ve
even had a couple of them threaten me: “I’ll kick your ass.” It
can happen if you provoke them in the I way that they don’t
want to be provoked. Look, the men in there have hard-ons.
They think with their hard-ons. Their hard-ons aren’t getting
satisfied, they go off.
Describe some of the more unique encounters you’ve
had with customers. ~ One I will probably remember until
I die is the boy who came in and sucked himself off. I think
that’s wonderful. He rolls over, brings his hips up, and sucks
himself off. Then he spits it out, which is a beautiful finish.
The businessmen with the lingerie totally kill me. They’re the
ones doing the “right thing,” and then they strip down, and
they’re in women’s lingerie and garter belts. That’s just wonderful.
I love the businessmen who get their dicks sucked by
other men. [Laughs.] That’s a real turn-on, actually! Because
it’s like they’re allowing their power to be demoted in front of
us. I love it.
We run this whole fuckin’ world. The
world is based on pussy. Face it.
Are you ever disturbed by the effect you have on customers?
~ [Laughs.] No, I enjoy it. I like to piss them off; I like to
make them feel something else besides their fucking dicks. I
want them to be in for a banger. It’s like, you think you’re here
for a quarter, getting a fucking hooker? Hell no, you’re get ting
a woman who’s intelligent, a woman who thinks you’re fucking
pathetic, who can’t understand why you have to do it. I’ve
masturbated my whole life, and the idea of going to a place
like that and putting myself on display—there’s just something
wrong about it. It’s not wrong, it’s just—it’s pathetic.
It’s just pathetic that they have to pay a quarter and beat off.
It’s pathetic.
Do you ever abuse the customers? ~ [Laughs.] Yes! Yes, I
abuse them. I find myself going out of my way to make them
feel intimidated and insecure, and make it hard for them to
achieve an orgasm. [Laughs.] I enjoy that, because it’s not
supposed to happen. You’re supposed to make it easy, so I
think they should be in for a little treat. [Laughs.] I’m so rude
to them. I’m going to have to start being aware that when I
laugh at people and they have sexual problems, they may go
kill themselves.
Describe your family and its circumstances as you remember
them during childhood. ~ My family was the perfect,
all-American family. Mom and Dad were married, happy,
and there was no abuse. They both worked, and I went to
Catholic school and had the bike and the dog. I have an older
brother, adopted also. Everything was just fine....
My family is middle class. My dad was always a truck dispatcher
for major supermarket chains. My mom has been the
secretary, computer analyst lady. I went to Catholic school,
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