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Remembrance in Time
experiences and critics over communism, which still is a good sign for successive, long
term and painful, but still a recovery, we on the other hand, in our small Macedonia, are
living very intensively the postulates of the red twin of the European authoritarianism.
From the ongoing negative utopia, if not the humanity, intellectuals at least will learn
something, and that is, that social ideological engineering, the deeper it goes in
manipulation with human its dehumanization is becoming even bigger and pathologic.
Here we can even brag who have more scars by the communism, just as Saint Francis of
Assisi when he was showing his scars inflicted by his opponents, but that unfaithful title
of The Victim, I hope is belonging to me. It is not simple to calculate this complex social
processes without a simplification – black and white, but it’s a fact that in every region
and in every country in Europe, the pluralism slowly is changing the closed ideological
systems, except in Macedonia where Stalin’s Comintern went deeper with its ideological
engineering and created new nation which now in the newly invented pluralism creates
problems for United Europe and United Nations.
I don’t feel like a victim, I never act as a victim. I worked reading and writing. I never
bend my back under the forces of the day, and that kept me in a normal life, if ever this
kind of life can be called normal. With decades under threats, insults, and the days spent
in cares how existentially to survive, without cell phone, no internet, no driver’s license,
here in front of you stays maybe the last dissident in Europe, as they call me, the biggest
internal enemy of the state and of the official Bolshevik Macedonism as national
ideology. Now if here was a representative of the official institutions of the state, you
would see how we would argue and how he or she will disapprove my invitation on this
discussion. I don’t know if the organizers have invited anyone else from Macedonia, but
if any when they heard that I came, I know that they would decide not to come. But me, I
am still alive and in a good health, and I don’t want anyone to think of me as of official
representative of my country in which by some strange chance I managed to survive.
In your countries it already starts a boring European way of living, but in Macedonia the
life is still exciting. It’s a hard for living, but wonderful for creating literature. As I see,
the whole world needs one new Gogol or Jonathan Swift, but nothing strange if he is
already born in Macedonia. What would I do without the daily “colossal” discoveries and
ideas of the Macedonian government, Macedonian academics, Macedonian scientists,
writers and journalists that the first man created by God was Macedon, that Macedonians
are the oldest nation on the Earth and that Greeks are stealing out of history. And by that
time, in our City square in Skopje, in the time Macedonia have the largest unemployment
in Europe, with astonishingly forty percent unemployed citizens, and big part of the
nation is literally starving, ancient-style buildings and thirty meters sculptures of Philip
and Alexander popping up daily, and the names of the streets, stadiums and bridges are
changing by getting names of ancient dynasties from Amyntas to Perdiccas.
But my general European and civil satisfaction will be small, tomorrow when this
constructed by them buildings and sculptures, will be their biggest witnesses against
themselves from now convicted on failure by time, when they will neglect that it was like
that.
On theirs transparent anti-European game although have a visible end, in the big picture, it
is not that simple in the end. The position and the opposition are Siamese twins of
Macedonian bolshevism and the result is in front of all of us: materialized symbolical chaos
in the center of Skopje is semantic victory of national diversion which is forced at these
decisive steps for prolonging their existence of identity from the communist ideology.